The Sound of Silence

The sound of silence you broke today
Caught me off guard, I didn’t know what to say
You walked away like so many times before
It was your choice to close the door
Keep it closed, why open it now
I wanted to forget you, although I didn’t know how

We have a history, you and I
I wonder if it was all a lie
I pushed your buttons, you pushed mine
Pure destruction all the time
Running in circles everyday
Why did you simply walk away

After you left, your name was everywhere
I really tried not to care
Often I didn’t know what to do
So I wrote all these silly poems about you
I wish I could delete you from my mind
But that’s not me, I’m not of that kind

The sound of silence you broke today
When you see me in the future, just walk away
I have nothing to say, I don’t want to talk
Just get used to seeing me walk
I can’t say hello and risk another goodbye
I will never understand the reason why

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Songs of my Life

1. A song from my childhood
“Colors of the Wind” from the Pocahontas movie. Of course, it had to start with something by Disney. The Soundtrack was the first CD I ever bought and I loved the movie, endlessly. I had this little recording machine, and I sang and recorded this song many, many times. The original song by Vanessa Williams is also on the soundtrack and it’s just absolutely beautiful. I still love hearing it, today.

2. A song that makes me cry
“I love the way you lie Part II” by Rihanna and Eminem. Every time I listen to it, I start to cry, most of the time. Still, it belongs to my absolute favorite songs in the world. The lyrics just touch me every time I hear it, because I can relate to them. I certainly cried both times, I heard her perform it at her concerts. The Part I version is amazing, as well, but makes me cry a little less. The whole message of both versions is just so intense (so was the video) and I just can’t help myself.

3. A song that makes me want to dance.
“Give me Everything” by Pitpull, Ne-Yo, Afrojack and Nayer. I lose control when I hear this song. And yes, I sing the rap part, too. :D  I love the beat and it’s really an awesome party song. And I’ll also say “Talk Dirty” by Jason Derulo. As soon as it comes on, I start dancing. Unfortunately, I haven’t partied to it yet, but the day will come.

4. A song that reminds me of my first big love
“Because of You” by Kelly Clarkson. Although it’s not really a love song, it was our song. I just can’t really remember why. :D I know that he gave my her album but that’s just all that comes to my mind. I could ask him but I doubt that he remembers. But as soon as the song comes on, I think of him.

5. A song that makes me hopeful
“Wake me up” by Avicii and Aloe Blacc. That was a really great summer hit and it always lightens my mood. I like the lyrics, I love Aloe’s voice and Avicii’s beats. Great combination.

6. A song on the soundtrack of my favorite movie
Well, to answer this question, I should be able to decide which movie is my favorite one. Well, I can’t because I suck at making decisions. So, I choose “Hungry Eyes” by Eric Carmen from Dirty Dancing, “Colorblind” by The Counting Crows from Cruel Intentions, “The Beauty and the Beast” by Angela Lansbury from the corresponding movie, “Supermodel” by Jill Sobule from Clueless and “I want you to want me” by Letters to Cleo from 10 Things I hate about you. So now you know my favorite movies, as well.

7. A song I love singing along to
I pretty much sing a long to every song I hear. What I love to do is find the right harmony which I’m pretty good at, even though I suck at reading music. I have a good musical ear, though.

8. The first song that comes on, when I put my music on shuffle
“Just Tonight” by The Pretty Reckless. Ok, ok, I admit it wasn’t the first song, but I wanted it here in this post because I love it. I found out about the band because I loved watching Gossip Girl. And since Taylor Momsen is the lead singer of the band, I found new music I love. The song is kind of dark and really intense and her voice is just incredible. I always sing the song, but I could never sound like her. There is an acoustic version on YouTube and Taylor just kills it.

9. A song that I cannot stand to listen to
“Get Lucky” by Daft Punk, Pharrell Williams and Nile Rodgers. I know, everybody loves it but I just don’t. I find it absolutely boring and I still don’t understand, why it got all these Grammy’s. It’s LAME!

10. A song that I have danced to with my best friend
Last year, I pretty much forced her to go partying with me on carnival. Well, we went out for 2,5 hours. We were so caught up in fun at my place that we left at midnight and when we reached the party, I started to feel sick. Still, we had fun and danced our butts off. “I like to move it” by Real to Real definitely got us moving. It’s just an awesome 90s song. I definitely share a lot of memories with her and “Lady Marmelade” by Christina Aguilera, Lil Kim, Maya and Pink. In Junior High, we danced to it in school. We performed it for PE and music to get some good grades. We were a group of four and we used chairs. For music, we even jumped into full prostitute-gear. :D Well, I could name a lot of songs that I connect with my bff, since we’ve known each other for what feels like forever.

11. A song that reminds me of great times.
“Dirrrty” by Christina Aguilera brings back the party memories. I loooved this song so much and it definitely made me dance on a couple of tables and bars. We also performed a dance at the junior high graduation ceremony, in front of everyone. Of course, we didn’t wear much. But with 16, we couldn’t care less. And yes, it did include grinding on each other.

12. A song that I sang for somebody
I could definitely name several because I love to sing and you can definitely surprise people with it and make them happy. When my uncle and my aunt got married, I surprised them with singing “Hallelujah” by Alexandra Burke and “Make you feel my love” by Adele. Last year, I sang “Right here waiting” by Richard Marx at someone else’s wedding. I sang several times for my mom and with the school choir, band etc. The most fun were the rock songs with the rock band at prom. “Seven Nation Army” by The White Stripes, “Self Esteem” by The Offspring or “Smells Like Teen Spirit” by Nirvana were definitely a lot of fun to perform on stage. Barefoot!

13. A song that reminds me of a certain situation
“Insane in the Brain” by Cypress Hill. So, there was this guy I saw and that I wanted to meet. So my friends and I stalked him for a couple of months. Nothing too drastic and we didn’t get to see much of him. Anyway, the night came and we met. YAY! Even though he turned out to be a complete douche after that night, we had a lot of fun but that didn’t last too long. Well, when he bought me a drink and we sat down to chat a little, this song came on and I always think of that fun night out, when the song comes on.

14. My favorite song
“9 Crimes” by Damien Rice. It’s beautiful and touching and I don’t know anyone who doesn’t agree with me. I taught myself to play the song on the piano, although I probably have to re-learn it by now. There are helpful videos on YouTube for that. So I love listening to it, I love singing it and I love playing it, even though I’m definitely not a pro.

15. A song by my favorite band
Well, I don’t really have a favorite band, so I’ll choose from my all-time favorite bands, since I was a kid. “Everybody” by The Backstreet Boys and “Wannabe” by the Spice Girls. It doesn’t get better than that. I was a huuuge fan and my room was plastered with posters. I still love to listen to their music and I can’t wait to finally see the Backstreet Boys live on stage in March.

Music Tattoo

365 days as an Au Pair!

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30 TV shows that made my childhood awesome!

I often come across lists about shows that we watched as kids. I’m a a true 90s kid and we had awesome TV shows. I guess, I’ve always been a TV junkie. So here is a list of my favorite shows and believe me, I’ll probably write another post continuing the list. And if you’re reading this and you’re thinking ” I totally forgot about that show,” go to YouTube. There you’ll find opening themes, full episodes and a lot more. I checked for many of the shows and if my thesis wasn’t waiting, I’d spend all day and night in front of my computer, wallowing in memories. Let me know what you watched as a child by commenting below. Let’s all remind each other of shows that made our childhood truly awesome.

90s TV shows

1. The Torkelsons / Almost Home
I might have forgotten about this great show, if I hadn’t written it all down, as a kid. When I read through my notebook, I remembered, googled it and watched all episodes on YouTube. Now I know, why I always wanted a bench in front of a big window in my room. Dorothy Jane’s favorite spot. I won’t be talking to the man in the moon though.

2. Under the Umbrella Tree
Iggy, Gloria and Jacob were just sooo cool and the characters taught us kids important life lessons. I wish, I could be the only human being living together with puppets.

3. Ocean Girl
Neri was sooo cool. She was like a mermaid but with actual legs. She could outswim everyone and talk to whales. And yes, she was sooo pretty. Furthermore,  I always found the underwater world very fascinating. And ORCA (Oceanic Research Centre Australia) looked sooo cool. I always wanted to live there. With these cool cabins and sliding doors.

4. Barney
“I love you, you love me. We’re a happy family. With a great big hug and  kiss from me to you. Won’t you say you love me too.” Barney is the coolest dinosaur ever. And Baby Bop was just the cutest. We always rented Barney movies when we went to a store called Smith. I loved that store! I still have a little Barney figure and I thinks it was a great show for kids. I’m still a fan of everything that involves dancing and singing.

5. Micky Mouse Club
Britney Spears, Christina Aguilera, Justin Timberlake, Ryan Goslin….enough said!

6. Fraggle Rock
I especially remember those colorful creatures building strange constructions inside their cave, out of clear sticks. Weren’t they able to eat them? Or did somebody else eat them? And they lived beneath some craftsman who had a dog.

7. Mighty Morphin Power Rangers
Sometimes, they show re-runs and even though the special effects are hideous, I love it. This show was soooo cool. There are still Power Ranger shows today, but they are too modern. I’m talking about Jason, Kimberly, Zack, Trini and Billy. And not to forget that creepy talking head in a tank Zordon. When I was younger, I loved the yellow ranger and today, I love the pink one. Can’t wait to get my hands on a costume, one day. I remember Mc Donalds having Power Ranger stuff in their happy meals. We had a morpher with golden coins and I remember having the yellow ranger with megazord. Oh, how I miss the good old times. GO GO Power Rangers!

8. Rugrats
Angelica was the coolest. But I never understood why she had this ugly Cynthia doll?! Tommy, Chuckie, Phil and Lil. They were all really adorable. Tommy was a great leader and they experienced cool adventures. Unbelievable though that Chuckie never died of a heart attack. He was sooo afraid of everything. PS: RAPTOR! Awwwwwww! ;)

9. Doug
Doug Funnie. I always hoped for him and Patty Mayonnaise to become a couple. The show showed how difficult it is in teenage years and that dating takes some effort…and courage. I liked him especially for always writing in his journal. And he had a dog.

10. Bananas in Pajamas
Now this is a show I really miss. “Bananas in pajamas are coming down the stairs, bananas in pajamas are coming down in pairs. Bananas in pajamas are chasing teddy bears…” B1, B2 and the teddys living next to a beach. I really loved that show and I still want them as stuffed animals.

11. Sabrina the Teenage Witch
Magic always works for me. Salem the talking cat was the best. And when Sabrina and Harvey FINALLY decided to spend their lives with each other in the very last episode, I was so relieved, even though they were leaving on a motor cycle and Harvey was obviously thinking he was Danny Zuko.

12. Sailor Moon
I just recently bought the first seasonn on DVD and realized that every episode is basically the same. Bunny Tsukino (German version, Serena Tsukino in the English version), turns into Sailor Moon and has to fight everything evil. I really don’t know why they chose her because she is clumsy as hell and she cries all the time. Luckily her fellow warriors are more sophisticated. And when everything seems like it’s over, the oh so handsome Tuxedo mask appears and saves the day.

13. Clueless
when I was 13, I watched the movie for the first time with my best friend. From there on, she was Dionne and I was Cher. Of course I loved the show, even though I was a little sad that Cher wasn’t played by Alicia Siverstone. A show about rich Beverly Hills kids, always dressed in bright colors. I would murder for Cher’s room, bath and closet!

14. Beverly Hills 90210
And I mean the old series. Gladly, they are currently showing re-runs in Germany and I still love to watch the show. Brenda and Brandon, Kelly, Dylan, Steve, Donna, David, Andrea trying to grow up, although they already seemed pretty grown-up to me. It was just a pretty cool show and it still is.

15. Clarissa explains it all
Her room was cool. Her style was cool. The fact that a boy was able to enter her room by placing a latter in front of her window and climbing through was questionable but pretty cool, too. And she probably had the most annoying on-screen-brother ever. Ferg-face was terrible. Once, I made myself a peace sign out of neon pink cardboard to hang on my door. Why? Because Clarissa had one in her room, just a different color.

16. Full House
“You got it, dude!” Great family TV show and it’s still a lot of fun to watch. And Michelle was one of the cutest babies, ever.

17. Daria
I was always very much into everything made by MTV and Daria was really different, but pretty cool. She was like the opposite of me but oh well. Different is always good for me.

18. Family Matters
Imagine having Steve Urkel as your neighbor, who just walks into your house whenever he feels like it. Especially while being a girl in your teenage years. Poor Laura Winslow. But the interaction between Carl and Steve was always very funny. I wonder though, if the kid has back and nose problems, today, from all the strange walking and grunting after laughing. PS: “Did I do that???”

19. Moesha
I love Brandy as an artist and I loved Brandy in that show. But I never thought Moesha and Q make a cute couple. The show had great music and also great guests and I would love to re-watch some episodes. Furthermore, she kept a journal. I always sympathize with those characters. And her friends are just hilarious.

20. Dawsons Creek
And here we have another teenage character who’s room you can enter through the window. What did they’re parents think of that???  But we all wanted Joey and Dawson to become a real couple. It was so cute how they shared they’re first kiss. But if I remember it right, Dawson had something going on with Jen and Joey and Pacey developed an interesting relationship and everything was always a huge drama. The setting of the show was beautiful, though.

21. Buffy the Vampire Slayer
Before vampires were able to walk around in bright daylight or sparkled in the sun, the show showed real vampires. They lived in the dark, looked pretty scary and were supposed to be killed. I never saw Edward Cullen’s face change into something more vampiresque. Buffy was tough and strong, at least until she met Angel and fell for him. I guess there is just something about Vampires no girl can resist.

22. Dinosaurs
A family of humanized Dinosaurs with a baby from the devil. That baby is so mean and awfully cruel toward his farther. But as he always says: “I’m the baby, gotta love me.”

23. Singled Out
That was such a fun dating show and the gorgeous Jenny McCarthy was always great to watch. So funny and ridiculous and really fast. If that show would still be on today, I would totally take part. That show makes “The Bachelor” look sooo boring.

24. V.I.P.
Pamela Anderson as the always sexy Vallery Irons. She didn’t know anything about being a bodyguard but of course, she was always there when she was needed and somehow managed to save the day. I remember replaying that show with my Barbie dolls. I even cut a black-haired Barbie’s hair to make her look like Nikki. That’s how much I loved that show. And I made my parents record every episode.

25. S Club 7
“Don’t stop, never give up. Hold your head high and reach the top. Let the world see what you have got. Bring it all back to you.” Who remembers that song? I definitely do because I was a huge fan. Even though looking back that show was very weird, I watched all the episodes. And made my parents record them all, again. The songs were catchy and it was all really funny. Jo was always my favorite.

26. Student Bodies
Why did I love this show? Right, because it was about teens making a school newspaper. And since I’m totally into this, of course this show was totally for me. Furthermore, I thought the cartoons were really funny.

27. The Munsters
I never understood why Marilyn, a normal human being, lived with them. I mean they were great but still, I found it strange. And I never understood how these creatures could live among normal people. Monsters living a normal life was pretty unusual. But they were cool. And I loved the black and white.

28. Scooby Doo
The show occasionally still runs today and it’s always great to watch how the group tries to solve mysteries. And I’m totally with Shaggy and Scooby and all the eating. And did Daphne and Fred ever officially become a couple? I can’t remember.

29. Talespin, Darkwing Duck, Chip & Dale Rescue Rangers, DuckTales
Some of the most awesome Disney shows ever. I loved them all sooo much as a child and I would love to re-watch all of them. The characters were sooo cool.

30. Pepper Ann
She looked hideous but she and her friends were fun to watch. How cool it would’ve been, if some of her fantasies would’ve come true.

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Verloren/Lost

Verloren
Ich bin hier um bei dir zu sein

Doch irgendwie fühl ich mich allein

Du bist hier aber irgendwie auch
nicht

Ich bin einsam ohne dich

Ich seh dich doch du bist nicht hier

Bist in Gedanken ganz weit weg

Ich weiss es bevor du es sagst

Hab dein Herz verloren an diesem Tag

Lost
I am here to be with you

But somehow I feel alone

You’re here but somehow you’re
not

I am lonely without you

I see you but you’re not here

Lost in thoughts far away

I know it before you speak

I lost your heart on this very day

Foggy morning

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Dear readers…

Dear readers,

the first month of the year is already over. Unbelievable! I’m still hoping for a great year, even though it didn’t start too well. I did make some progress with my thesis, though, and I can’t wait to get it over with. Furthermore, I’m finally in the AuPair system and I can’t wait to find a host-family. I’m pretty excited about that. Other than that, I have a couple of cool things planned for the year: Backstreet Boys concert, Beyoncé concert and tickets for a German comedian. And I’ve been to the soccer stadium already last week. I’m trying to plan as many cool things for this year, as possible.  I definitely don’t want to be broke all summer like last year, but I don’t think that will happen. I want to go to the zoo, and to amusement parks and do all kinds of things. Can’t wait. :)

Anyway, I hope you’re all doing great this year and I thank you very much for every single time, you read my posts. I found it incredible to see, that people from all over the world read what I write. I love to spread my ideas all over the globe. Please continue reading and leave me some comments if you like. :)

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