Goodbye July and August 2022

Goodbye, July and August,

and hello, September. I admit, I’m very late with this, but I just had so much on my plate. This time for real. And in July, not many exciting happened, so I decided to wait another month, hoping to have something to write about.

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Anyway, it’s September, which is one of my favorite months of the year. It marks the beginning of fall – my favorite season. And boy, did fall hit fast. It has been raining almost non-stop, and it’s super cold. I don’t mind too much – walking the dog in this weather is a bit annoying, though. And the switch came too fast. I’m pretty much stuck with a constant cold now. I also haven’t figured out the right amount of clothes to wear yet. I have started putting on a beanie and a scarf when going outside. Finally, it’s the season for hiding my unwashed hair again.

As I’m writing this, it is Sunday. I wanted to work on my scrapbook all weekend, but I had a reading day and a writing day instead. And the best thing is, I don’t have to work today, tomorrow, or the next two weeks for that matter cause I finally have some time off. And I really need it. While most of my colleagues had vacations during summer, I did not. Since I don’t have kids, it does not make sense for me to take my leave during summer break when everything is more expensive and there are kids everywhere. I always take a break in September, but this time, it just felt like forever to get there. And as usual, in the days leading up to it, when you’re already nothing but exhausted, people hit you left and right with stuff to do. Not fun.

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So for once, I’m in a good mood on a Sunday night. I’m planning on having a rather chill first week with running some errands, doing things like visiting my grandma or going shopping with my mom, doing some housework, reading, writing – things like that. And then, next Monday, I’m finally going on vacation with my mom and the doggy. We’re going to the place that makes me the happiest, ever since we went for the first time a year ago: Norddeich. It’s a place by the Northern Sea, and I don’t even know where to begin when describing how being there makes me feel. Pure JOY.

But back to the last two months, which were not the most interesting, as usual. If only I had a blog as a teenager. Oh, the stories I could’ve told. Probably better that they’re not all over the internet, but still. With each year I get older, I become more boring. Seriously, my grandma probably has more exciting stories to tell. And she’s 93. But I just love sleeping, watching TV, reading, writing, scrapbooking – all the indoor stuff. And yeah, I love my friends, but in most cases, we just all live such different lives, and it’s just not as easy as it used to be. And almost everyone I know had Covid in the last two months, and I’m still trying to stay away from it as good as possible. Still succeeding. Furthermore, I had massive car trouble for weeks.

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I think my highlight was a work thing. The whole firm was invited to a boat cruise with food, drinks, music, and all. I admit, I usually decide to opt out of these things, but one of my colleagues made me go, and I’m glad she did because I laughed so much that my cheeks hurt. I guess I do have to say yes sometimes. I also went to the small local fair (Kirmes) and drank beer at 3 in the afternoon. I was also social and friendly. I’m sure my parents were never prouder.

I ate McDonald’s with my grandma, and you wouldn’t believe how much joy that brings her, which makes me so happy. I hung out with my parents, and I love that I now live down the street from them. It makes everything so much easier. I enjoyed the beautiful lake that is nearby. I bought myself a bike, which my brother picked up for me, but I still haven’t taken a ride cause I instantly lost motivation and am also scared of hurting myself. I’m clumsy and haven’t ridden one in forever. I tried working on my tan but didn’t get very far. I drove to a shopping mall, went to my favorite bookstore, picked up food and Starbucks, and went back home. I attended my brother’s birthday, socialized, and had a good time.

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I drove my car a lot because I had to check if things are fixed, but that cost me my last nerve cause there was no trust there. It made me feel sick to my stomach every time I got in. It’s better now and seems to be fixed. I had a panic attack when I found a spider almost as big as my hand in my bedroom. And that seems to have triggered heart palpitations, which I know have whenever I get nervous or worked up about something. Which happens a lot. I really need my time off.

So yeah, that’s how my life has been going. Not too bad, not too great, but overall definitely ok. I’m sure we all have our moments, but I’m currently in a good mood, and I’m willing to keep it that way. At least for the duration of the next two weeks. I’m gonna try to enjoy every moment as best as I can.

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Loneliness isn’t an absence of company. Loneliness is felt when we are lost. But we can be lost right in the middle of a crowd. There is nothing lonelier than being with people who aren’t your wavelength. The cure for loneliness isn’t more people. The cure for loneliness is understanding who we are. – Matt Haig, The Comfort Book

Tons of love,
Hailey 

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Books I loved
Pipp Williams – The Dictionary of Lost Words
Taylor Jenkins Reid – One True Loves
Bella Mackie – How to Kill Your Family

Lovely life
barbecues all my plant babies 90s toys lake view beautiful sunsets McDonald’s dates with grandma scrapbooking waffles vacation planning tanning gifting bubble tea birthday cake new bike pink helmet meeting new people you instantly click with blue skies fairs crêpes self-care book stores Starbucks hanging out with friends laughing boat cruise family time scented candles fall saying yes to things sleeping until noon face masks water

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Goodbye June 2022

Goodbye June,

and hello, July. I’m probably sounding like a broken record, but how fast is this year passing by? We’re halfway through, and I’m starting to panic that I’m not doing enough with my time. Seriously, it’s crazy how much of a homebody I am. If it wasn’t for my dog, I would hardly be outside. I also have too many indoor hobbies, which I enjoyed a lot last month. I just love hanging around in my own space.

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Most of the time last month, I was busy getting my new apartment into shape, and I used pretty much every free minute to try and make it perfect. I’m not one of these people who won’t have lamps on the ceiling three months in. I want everything done in the blink of an eye, which of course didn’t work out and was a bit frustrating. But I’m pretty much done, and it makes me so happy. Still waiting on a wall clock to be delivered, and that’s it. I’m also really feeling it now, especially all my plants. My living room looks a bit like a jungle, and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

Unfortunately, moving, furnishing and decorating the place, going on vacation, and my little online shopping addiction does not make my bank account like me very much. It’s pretty mad at me, and I’m trying my hardest to stop spending money on things I don’t really need. After all, I need to pay my bills, and I also want to go on vacation again in a few months, and I tend to go a bit nuts with the shopping when I’m in vacation mode. So, I eat lots of pasta – which is totally not the worst thing in the world – and try to stay away from Amazon.

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Overall, I would say that June wasn’t super interesting. I decorated, bought lots of stuff, started planning my next vacation, spent time with my parents, went back to the office on some days, got back into reading lovely books, and finally found time to work on my scrapbooks. Sometimes, nothing makes me happier than going down memory lane and putting all my souvenirs into an album. I wish I could do scrapbooking for a living.

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So my life hasn’t been exciting, but I feel like I’m happier. I’m trying to do more of what I love, and if that doesn’t involve seeing people or leaving the house, so be it. Everybody is back to having Covid anyway. But I do plan on having more social interactions this month. Suppose it’s not too hot cause I am definitely not a fan of summer. But every little hermit crab has to leave her shell eventually.

You don’t need to be busy. You don’t need to justify your existence in terms of productivity. Rest is an essential part of survival. An essential part of us. – Matt Haig, The Comfort Book

Tons of love,
Hailey 

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Books I loved
Taylor Jenkins Reid – The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo
Sally Thorne – The Hating Game
John Strelecky – The Cafe on the Edge of the World

Lovely life
bubble tea anything by Taylor Jenkins Reid Pop Punk Stranger Things plants everywhere Barbie pink vacation planning bank holiday’s Britney Spears finally finding happiness Prince Louis Chinese food video calls with my bff fresh sheets fun podcasts all the pasta blue skies good music Disney movie marathons scrapbooking stickers penny press

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Currently… #5

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    • listening: To my favorite podcast.
    • eating:  In Germany, we say “Stulle”. I’m eating bread.
    • drinking: Water. Water. And more water.
    • wearing: Comfortable clothes in black and my favorite pink cardigan.
    • feeling: Pretty tired. Haven’t been sleeping enough and actually had to go to the office today.
    • weather: It’s a bit cloudy, and there is supposed to be rain.
    • wanting: The weekend to get here really fast.
    • needing: Another vacation and my new apartment to finally be finished.
    • thinking: About what I’m gonna do after work to make this day better.
    • enjoying: Fantasizing about and planning the next vacation by the sea.

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Goodbye to all the months I missed writing about

Goodbye to the last I don’t even know how many months,

and, hello June. It has definitely been a hot second since anyone heard from me on my blog. After Blogtober last year, which I didn’t finish, I just stopped writing. I constantly thought about it, but it simply didn’t happen. But I want to try and get back into it.

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Anyway, I thought about giving a recap of each month I missed, but I’m not gonna do that. I mean, who the hell cares about how my Christmas was, now that we’ve reached June, right? FYI, it was great, and I’m still grateful that I finally got to spend it with the whole family again. I know that not everyone was as fortunate.

So, let’s focus on 2022. The biggest news first: I moved again. In March, I finally decided that I had enough. I was so unhappy in my previous apartment, and I decided to look for a new place. My neighbors were terrible, and I felt like slowly going insane. And there were a few more reasons why I needed to change something. As beautiful as the apartment was, it wasn’t worth hating everything else. I deserve happiness.

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I got lucky and found a new place rather quickly. The whole process was pretty emotional because I was sad about giving up my beautiful apartment, I sure wasn’t looking forward to moving, and because it all happened so fast, I was overwhelmed. What if I don’t feel at home in the new space? But at the end of the day, it just had to happen. So, April and May were mostly about getting the place painted, moving all my stuff, and fitting it into my new home. Which is smaller, and damn, downsizing is a bitch.

I also stayed with my parents, who now live within walking distance, for like a month. The dog and I loved it a little too much. But it just took me a while to feel the new apartment, make it livable, and I just wasn’t in a hurry. I was also a bit scared about whether or not I would like living there.

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When the place was ready for me to move in, I went on vacation and had a blast. I got my head straight, tried getting rid of my negativity and worries, and just enjoyed myself. I also ate a lot of waffles. It was amazing and helped so much. And when we came back, the doggy and I moved right in. So far, I can honestly say that it was a good decision.

Well, what else. It was my birthday in February, and I spent it in the Netherlands, where the doggy and I visited my best friend. I hate that she lives there now, but it was nice spending some time together. We didn’t do too much because of Covid, but my one exception was going super nuts at Primark, which I hadn’t done in too long, and I loved it.

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In January, my dog was diagnosed with Cushing’s syndrome, which wasn’t fun, but he’s fine and getting medication for all his diseases. I also went to see some doctors myself and was diagnosed with asthma, as well as vitamin D and B12 deficiency. It all sure explains lots of problems I’ve been having for a while, and I’m working on it.

So, I guess this year, I’m trying to be happier. Knowing what’s wrong with me and handling it, moving to a better place, focusing more on things that I love. I really hope that my life will improve – especially my mental health. It all takes time, but at least I’m starting to make helpful changes. And I guess that’s really what matters.

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Each of us has the power to enter a new world. All we have to do is change our mind. – Matt Haig, The Comfort Book

Tons of love,
Hailey 

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Books I loved
Taylor Jenkins Reid – Daisy Jones and The Six
Delia Owens – Where the Crawdads Sing
Marissa Stapley – Lucky

Lovely life
ice cream new plants waffles tapas fall colors finding a new apartment chocolate Gatorade vacation time pet stores being by the seaside podcasts juice Christmas lights Taylor Jenkins Reid spending time with the whole family baking cookies yummy dip souvenirs anything maritime wireless headphones advent calendars crossword puzzles doggy snores blankets Matt Haig stuffed crust pizza exploring new places scented candles nice walks blue skies planning vacations scrapbooking getting cozy good trash TV donut deliveries IKEA when it’s not busy hot dogs when you move and things finally start finding their place mocktails fried fish garlic ocean smell book stores strawberries good bakeries Blake Lively at the Met Gala vending machines sea shells Let’s Dance bubble tea slushie sand between my toes Avril Lavigne’s new album Dunkaroos Wordle Norddeich 90s teen shows ear plugs Paperchase scrapbooks cute presents BÉIS travel bags Kim + Pete living with my parents for a bit donating the music on Bridgerton Eurovision Song Contest

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Goodbye Blogtober – Dropping Out Early

On Sunday, I decided to quit Blogtober early. At first, I was a bit disappointed in myself, but you know what? Putting too much pressure on yourself over something you don’t have to do while it doesn’t give you joy is stupid. Therefore, I threw in the towel a week early.

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I really tried. But I was constantly scrambling for ideas and motivation. I just had so much going on, and I wasn’t able to focus most of the time. And when I wrote something, it often felt half-hearted, and I don’t like that. I prefer being a bit more passionate about writing and not just forcing something out of me. It also made me go to bed too late all the time, and that’s never good.

I hardly managed to share my work on social media, which usually gets more readers. Numbers could’ve been a lot better. But thanks to the person who one day decided to read my entire blog, whoever you are. Furthermore, I didn’t have time to read what other people were writing about and share some love on their blogs, which, for me, is also a part of Blogtober.

So overall, I just didn’t like it at all this year, and I feel a lot better since deciding to quit. There are more important things, and we should all do things that make us happy. But I do hope to write more regularly again – just not under pressure.

But totally have a read at what I did manage to put out there: Blogtober Round 3 – Here I Go Again // Goodbye Summer (July-September) 2021 // Learn From Mean Girls: Don’t Change Who You Are For Other People // Currently… #2 // The Post-Vacation-Blues // Photography: Ostfriesland – North Sea // Mixtape #26 – Late 90s/Early 00s Rock/Punk Music // “The Comfort Book” by Matt Haig: How It Actually Gives Me Comfort // Everything I Love About Fall // Goodbye Negative Nancy: Things That Make Me Feel Better On A Bad Day // Random Ramblings #6 // My Favorite Childhood Books // My Mid-Blogtober-Struggle – Happens Every Time // Growing Up With Disney // The Get To Know Your Pet Tag // Currently… #3 // It’s Ok Not To Be Busy And Productive All The Time // 30 Writing Prompts For Lifestyle Bloggers #4 // Welcome To My Favorite Room // Mixtape #27 – Cozy Fall Vibes // Scrapbooking 101: What This Hobby Means To Me // Currently… #4 // Books I’ve Read and Loved This Year

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