Goodbye to the last four months of my life

Goodbye to the last four months of my life,

and hello February, aka my birthday month. And also a belated happy new year. This is just sooo me – always late. Things have just been crazy for weeks and months, and I couldn’t really focus on any of the things I love. And I pretty much knew that once I made it through Blogtober, I would fall off the face of the earth. Because that was exhausting and I needed a break. Which has obviously lasted too long.

Insta monthsSo, what has happened in the past four months? Not many fun things, that’s for sure. By now, this pandemic is taking a toll on pretty much everyone I know – including myself. It’s just so frustrating to feel like there is no end in sight, and we’re just living from lockdown to lockdown, and it’s pretty much all shit. But I guess we all know that, so I’ll think of something else to write about.

The main thing happening was me finding an apartment in October, and by now, I’ve finally moved in. Our family home was sold, and four people had to move into three different households. WORST IDEA EVER! It has been one of the most stressful times of my life. And Covid made it even worse. We weren’t able to just have all the people we know help us, I had to get as many things as possible before shops had to close, my online ordering habits have become absolutely insane, and yeah, nothing was actually fun.

We did everything with family only. And even that turned out difficult, especially when someone close to me actually got tested positive for Covid, and quarantine guidelines, and so on. I will not go into detail, but it was not fun, but also not with a terrible outcome – which is all that matters. Anyway, it’s been packing, carrying, unpacking, buying, assembling, decorating, ordering, cleaning, etc. forever, and I just can’t take it anymore. So glad that I’m almost done because my body and soul are over it, and I just want to go back to doing fun things. And yes, I’ve been moaning forever and that must stop, as well.

Insta monthsWhat else. Christmas was nice. We canceled all plans and it was pleasantly relaxing. Good food and no stress – I could get used to it. But it will also be nice to be able to have family gatherings again at some point. Same for New Year’s. Which I’m usually not a fan of anyway. Except for this time, I was actually quite happy and looking forward to 2021 and moving into my new apartment.

Obviously, I didn’t have many encounters with friends. Some in October and November, but then it pretty much had to stop. Man, I miss my friends. Now I have this fabulous place and can’t entertain people. I used to see my bestie and my godson somewhat regularly but that stopped as well. It’s just all so difficult. So it’s mostly video chats, which are better than nothing, but we’re all over it. I’m just so glad that I have the doggy living with me. Otherwise, it would definitely be pretty lonely. And he adapted so well, I’m so proud of him.

Insta monthsAnyway, I guess this is more of a moaning post than anything else. There are just not many fun things to write about. Even the US election – although with an outcome I so hoped for – was so stressful and had me emotionally occupied for days. I guess we all hoped for a better start to 2021, but it’s just not happening any time soon. As much as I thought my country was handling things rather well in the spring, after the summer, everything just went downhill, and now it’s just a shitshow. Awesome. However, as mentioned above, after all the stress is more or less over now, I will try going back to things I actually enjoy and hope for spring to get here and maybe bring some form of relief. At least better weather would be nice, cause I absolutely hate winter. Enough moaning. Over and out.

At this point, I usually put down some positive words but honestly, just stay safe, everyone. Be careful and thoughtful. Stick to the rules. And know that there will always be people who have it better or worse than you. But no matter how big or small your problemd are, your feelings are always valid. We should not compare the severity of each others problems and support each other instead. All this has to be over at some point. It just has to.

Tons of love,

Winter wonderland

Songs I loved
Charlotte OC – Where It Stays
Dagny – Somebody
Little Mix – Sweet Melody

Lovely life
my new apartment Biden/Harris making an advent calendar for my godson rosegold relaxing holiday’s my doggy a nice view my new bed re-watching Dawson’s Creek galaxy lights plants American junk food being able to buy whatever the hell I want new books labeling fondue my Disney office pancakes Bridgerton Amanda Gorman movie night having everything to myself live-action Mulan Holiday movies cheese Virgin River progress ♡  presents when the snow melts away an organized pantry sunshine Christmas lights  

Insta months

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Blogtober 2020 – That’s a Wrap

Oh my God, I can’t believe the last day of Blogtober is here, and I’m so happy about it. It has been a ride. I’m exhausted but also proud of pulling through, even though I felt like quitting several times. I mean, I work full time, I currently have so much going on cause my family and I are moving into three different households within the next few months, and it’s just a lot. And then sitting down everyday to write something, because I’m always poorly prepared, was a challenge.


But I feel like I put together a good mix of posts. Short and easy on lazy days, long and emotional on others. However, I feel like my photo game wasn’t the best. I’m not a fan of stock photos and always want to use my own, but was definitely lacking ideas. So using comic me was often the way to go. But I’m definitely planning on upping my photography game. If only the weather was better…

My views were ok, although I must say that I almost had the same views in April when I only published four posts. But I guess by now, people have found ways to manage quarantine/lockdown and just stay busy at home. I also suck at promoting my work. But, I really love the fact that I’ve met new bloggers, and I definitely connected a lot more. I also really want to post regularly again, just not everyday. I can’t handle that kind of stress right now.

Anyway, thank you so much for reading, leaving sweet comments, likes, etc. It always means a lot to me. And I now know that blogging is still something I love deeply, and I can’t give up, even when it’s stressful. I just have to regularly commit a bit more time.

xx Hailey ♡

My Blogtober posts: Hello Blogtober – Am I really doing this again? // Goodbye Summer (June-September) 2020 // Why Having a Burn Book Isn’t As Awful As It Sounds // Tinder Diaries: The One That Got Away // Mixtape #24 – All-Time Favorites // Photography: San Francisco #3 // If These Mattresses Could Talk // The Autumn Reading Tag // More Books I Want To Read // Random Ramblings #4 // All the Things I Miss About Traveling // Falling In and Out of Love With Blogging // Would You Rather…? – Fashion Edition // All the Things I Want to Be // Building My Own Biosphere // Listen and Write // My Mid-Blogtober Struggle // 30 Writing Prompts for Lifestyle Bloggers #3 // Mixtape #25 – More Movie Soundtracks // “So, have you met anyone lately?” // Group Chats – Blessing and Curse // It’s Time to Move Out // What I Love About Amusement Parks // Thoughts I Had While Watching Hocus Pocus // The Face Behind the Blog Tag // Don’t Throw It Away – Have a Swap Party // Random Ramblings #5 – Covid Edition // Currently… #1 // Mind Your Own Business // Halloween Fun In Times Of Covid-19 – Blogger Style

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Halloween Fun In Times Of Covid-19 – Blogger Style

Tomorrow is Halloween, and I’m pretty sure it will be completely different this year. However, not for me personally. It’s not really that big of a deal in Germany anyway. And it’s always my besties birthday, so I usually hang out with her. I wouldn’t mind a fab Halloween party though, like in the movies. Or some proper trick-or-treating.

Anyway, the lovely Helen from Crispy Confessions tagged me in her post, and you know what? A day before Blogtober ends, it’s just what I needed. My motivation is pretty much out the window, but I can manage to answer a few questions.



  • Thank the blogger who tagged you and link their post
  • Put the rules after an introduction, then answer the 13 questions
  • Tag 13 more bloggers to participate in the game
  • Use these same Halloween questions, or create new ones of your own


1. What’s your favorite thing about October or Halloween?
Fall is my favorite season, so pretty much everything. Especially nature. Trees in all those different colors are always a great sight to see. And I love cozy evenings and watching fun Halloween movies. I’m also a big fan of costumes,

2. How much do you spend on Halloween?
Pretty much nothing. It’s never really a big thing here, and I don’t feel the need to buy lots of Halloween stuff. Maybe that will change when I have my own apartment. This year I spent 10 Dollars on a ticket for an online-screening of the Hocus Pocus special. That’s it.

3. What do you think the average person spends on Halloween goodies & does it match what you spend?
I have no idea, and I don’t think it really matters.

4. Does social media influence how much you decorate for Halloween, causing you to spend more?
Not really. The thing with Halloween is, I love it, but it’s not really my color palette. I hate the color orange, and in no scenario ever would it match my room setup. But again, maybe I’ll give it a go when I have my own place. Still have some things from a Halloween party I threw a million years ago.

Bitmoji Halloween

5. Do you buy or create your Halloween costumes, and what was your favorite costume so far?
In Germany, we mostly celebrate “Karneval”, which is more colorful and cheery. I have a whole closet full of costumes, and I’m more of a buyer. But I’ll throw together a vampire costume in a sec. Always a classic go-to for me. However, I once dressed up as a mermaid, which was my favorite.

6. Share a trick you have played on someone on Halloween.
I think when I was a teenager, some girls and I did some doorbell pranks. But we also did those on random days, as well.

7. Do you have a favorite Halloween treat?
Nope. I just love candy in general.

8. What is something you can do with a pumpkin once Halloween is over?
I have no clue. It always landed in the bin. Maybe ask Cinderella for advice.

9. Do you consider pumpkin a fruit or a vegetable?

10. What is the scariest food you’ve ever eaten?
Not sure. I don’t really experiment a lot. If I don’t feel like eating something, I just don’t.

Bitmoji Halloween

11. Do you have a favorite Halloween drink?
Is that a thing? I mostly drink water every day of the year. But I like a nice cup of tea when I cozy up.

12. People usually spend money on Halloween, but have you ever made money related to this holiday?
Like how? Turn my house into a haunted mansion for the public? So, no.

13. Have you ever read Frankenstein by Mary Shelley or another frightening book?
I’ve read it at university but don’t recall it being that frightening. Overall, I’m not really one for thrillers.

My Nominees

Well, since Halloween is tomorrow, I think it’s a bit too late, and I usually like to leave tags open for anyone to do. Also, I found the questions a bit weird, and I don’t really know what this has to do with a Covid-19 Halloween. Also, I like being a little rulebreaker. Sorry, not sorry.

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Mind Your Own Business

If the last few weeks have taught me one thing, it’s that people who constantly have to get in other people’s business make my blood boil. Sure, we all love our fair share of gossip. But there is a difference between exchanging some info about people you can’t stand with your best friend, or harassing everyone with annoying questions to have something to gossip about.

Going through life without knowing everything about everyone works pretty well for me. I constantly see things on social media from people I may have been close with at some point in my life. But if I haven’t really talked to someone in years, which usually happens for a reason, I never think “Oh hey, I wanna know everything, so I’ll just bombard someone with questions cause I don’t have a life.” I really don’t give a damn and move on. When I see someone having a child or buying a house, or whatever, I may utter some congratulations and that’s it.

Bitstrips Mad

I recently found my dream apartment and posted about it online and on WhatsApp. Boy, was I surprised who was suddenly interested in my life. Sorry folks, just because you know where I’ll be living, doesn’t mean you’re invited. And it became absolutely clear who is an actual friend and who isn’t. My girls sent congratulations and offered help, some people also sent congratulations and were just really sweet about it, which was lovely, but some were just being nosy.

Maybe I’m overreacting. But lately, it’s been bugging me, depending on who the questions are from. Probably triggered by the following scenario: There was a phone call with several people, and I told them, I was looking at an apartment. My close friends wished me luck, the nosy person immediately threw in comments, questions, and wanted a link with all the info, which I didn’t want to give. Didn’t feel like jinxing it. And I know how judgemental this person is. I wasn’t interested in anyone’s unasked opinion.

However, what really made me mad, after not getting the apartment and definitely being sad about it, the same person at first was like “oh, so sorry for you”, and then asked to see the apartment anyway. Are you kidding me? What the hell for? Is your life really that boring that you have to look at an apartment I didn’t get? And then what, talk about it and tell me how great it would’ve been? Hell no. I just got really upset. And then when I found a place, the same person wanted to throw a catalog full of questions at me, which I pretty much ignored. Apparently, that was too much to handle, though. So one of my best friends received complaints about me not sharing more details. Isn’t that just so ridiculous and sad? I sure know who won’t be getting an invite anytime soon.Bitstrips Mad

Anyway, I can’t stand this kind of nosiness. Not in my private life, and also not at work. I do my job. I don’t ask many questions. If people want to tell me something, they can, and I will keep my mouth shut. No gossip in the world is worth risking your job. Often, they tell me things I don’t even want to know and put ideas into my head that I then worry about. Fab. And aside from the general gossip, I do not appreciate people bombarding others with phone calls, pressing for information over and over again. I mean, how unprofessional can you be? I always feel a bit embarrassed for people who act this way.

So yeah, I just had to get this off my chest cause I’m obviously annoyed. And I hope the level of boringness in my life will never get so high, that I have to get on everybody’s nerves. My point is, be more empathetic. When someone is going through something, don’t make it harder on them. When people are ready to share, they will. When someone is happy, wish them the best and wait to become a part of the journey. Don’t take the chance of sharing something special away from someone, by being nosy and then not keeping your mouth shut. Accept when a person wants to keep something to themselves.

For me, these are things that make me decide who I want to have in my life. Who is there at the right time, who doesn’t push when I don’t feel like it, who doesn’t judge or compare. Don’t go around asking stupid and maybe even hurtful questions. I don’t think that’s too much to ask.

Bitstrips Mad

See also my post: “So, have you met anyone lately?”, which is a great example of a question nobody needs to hear.

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Currently… #1

A million years ago, I used to share some of these “Currently…” posts that just show my current mood, what’s going on in my life, etc. At some point, I deleted them during a clean-out of my blog, but I feel like reinstating this category, and maybe I’ll even put my old posts back online, as well. So in case you get an E-Mail with an old post,  you can just ignore it or find out what I was up to back in 2013/14/15.

Fall colors

  • listening: To the German Bachelorette trying to find the love of her life.
  • eating:  Frosted flakes and Doritos. Very nutritional.
  • drinking: Water – my number one drink.
  • wearing: Leggings – my favorite piece of clothing – a white long hoodie with a zipper, a basic longshirt underneath. I’m actually wearing the hood cause it’s cold. Definitely no bra.
  • feeling: Pretty stressed and tired cause I have lots going on.
  • weather: The weather is disgusting. I wanted a golden October, but instead, it feels like winter most of the time. It’s cold, windy, and the rain comes and goes.
  • wanting: The weekend to get here fast and Blogtober to end. It’s fun, but too much work.
  • needing: More than 24 hours in a day.
  • thinking: About my new apartment and what furniture I want to get.
  • enjoying: Some relaxed me-time with trash TV and blogging.

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