Goodbye January 2020

Goodbye to February,

and hello March. Now spring is close, right? That would be just lovely, but my weather app shows nothing but rain and occasionally snow. Fab. But there is just nothing you can do about the weather. I’ll just hide inside and wait for better days.

Or, I could really use the weather to get back into blogging. Every month I think that now is the time to jump back in, but somehow, I don’t. I take notes, have a list of ideas and all, but hardly ever actually write. So for this month, I’m gonna put it on the top of my to-do-list to get back into sharing my thoughts with anyone interested. And I’m sure once I do that, I will fall back in love with it.

So after a rather rough start to the year, February definitely was better. I eventually overcame the flu that lasted for like two and a half weeks and also got my car fixed. And to make it all even better, I had a few days off, since it was my birthday and I hate working on that day. And this year, I made sure to actually make the best of it and have some fun. Which I did.

On my birthday, I started with a chill morning and then went out shopping with my mom. We also had a yummy late lunch and just overall a good time. I also got lots of presents from my family and since they stuck to my Amazon list, I now have so many new books and I don’t know when I will manage to read them all. But I love them. And I love birthdays. Not the part where I get older (I’m gonna turn 40 in EIGHT years) but the me-time, presents, cake and the fact that it’s all about me. Haha.

A day later is always Valentine’s day which obviously isn’t my thing as someone who has been single since forever. I met with my bestie and my cute godson at my favorite café and we just chilled and talked a bit. It’s just nice to have time in the middle of the day to do this. Why do I have to work full-time?! And I went grocery shopping and just bought everything I love. It’s often these little things that make my day. And since I had been sick for a while, I just loved strolling through the isles again.

The best day of February was probably the third day of my birthday celebrations. (Yes, I love to drag it out for as long as possible.) I had a whole day planned for my bff and me. She knows how I am with my birthday, so she always makes sure to make plenty of time and is up for whatever I feel like doing. So I took her to a trampoline park and we had so much fun. But wow, that was incredibly exhausting and a bit frustrating seeing all the kids just hop around easily. But we laughed so much at how unfit we are. I also took a nasty spill once and for a moment, we honestly thought I had hurt myself really badly, but I survived. My body ached for a few days but I didn’t have to see a doctor. That would’ve been so typical. So that was awesome.

And then we went out to a Chinese buffet and stuffed our faces. The food there is just so good and I ate so much, I had to force myself to stop cause otherwise, it wouldn’t have ended well. My food-coma was real but worth it. Afterward, we just chilled at my house and to be honest, I was ready to go to bed at like 9pm, which of course I didn’t, but so much for turning 32. I’m such a grandma. We also had a sleepover and the whole day was just perfection.

And then I had an absolutely perfect day in the middle of a work-week. I mean, how the hell did that happen? I hadn’t been to the office in forever, so I was celebrated like a queen. I also got more presents and had lunch with a friend at our favorite Chinese place. After work, I went to the nearby outlet mall and grabbed a few things like a new puzzle and finally found my way to Starbucks, where I actually got my drink for free. And just this whole day with all these nice little things was so lovely that I came home all smiling and in a very good mood. My family was very confused, cause I am not usually such a positive person –  especially after work.

Another highlight was another trip to the outlet mall with my mom. We had a lovely afternoon and were actually successful. I bought a new jacket, some pants, shoes, etc. It was amazing cause I hardly ever find things while shopping. We had some yummy food and of course a basic-bitch-stop at Starbucks. Let’s see if I can reach gold status this year, now that I have one close by. But yeah, the day was so much fun.

The rest of the month was nothing too special, but I’m honestly so happy that I had some really good days that just filled me with happiness. I really need those and I hope that more will follow. But I’m also always a fan of a chill weekend with some puzzles, writing, reading and of course lots of sleeping. I have plenty of things on my list that I want to do this year, but for many of them, I need better weather cause they’re outside. So come one spring, show yourself.

Make some special plans for spring. Update your wardrobe. Cherish the little things in life. Pick up your favorite drink. Try something new. Enjoy a rainy day with watching movies and doing a puzzle. Reach out to people you haven’t seen in a while. Have wonderful month of March.

Tons of love,

Lovely life
bff-time Chinese food new books trying new things presents new furniture doggy cuddles Amy Santiago + Jake Peralta buffet board games chill days diary writing sunshine living cheese-filled crusts Big Brother is back on sleepovers being home alone having fun being a bit more motivated grocery shopping lovely mail bookstores oversized longshirts cake fajita pita being the center of attention all the bakery food actually leaving the house buying myself flowers slushies my car finally working again concrete travel plans freshly dyed hair 20 years of friendship boomerangs sleep Starbucks a successful shopping spree getting something for free discounts family time being missed

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Goodbye January 2020

Goodbye to January,

and hello February aka my birthday month. Man, I am so happy that January is over cause for me that was one hell of a shitshow. Why do I even get my hopes up at the beginning of each year that it will all be sunshine and rainbows?! I should know better.

The month started off with me accidentally crashing my phone screen cause I’m an idiot and never learn. It also was an omen for how the rest of January will be. Remember how I constantly had car trouble last year and then finally caved and used all my savings to buy a new one? Well, cars seem to hate me, so I had three visits to the repair shop and every time I drive somewhere I have a bad feeling cause I just can’t trust cars anymore. Fab.

And because I wasn’t stressed out enough already, I got stuck with the flu TWICE. The first one gladly only lasted like 24 hours but was absolutely horrible. I even broke down in our hallway. The second round lasted over one and a half weeks and is gladly finally better. I hardly leave the house and I have no idea where I got it from. Super fun.

So in between being sick and not having a functioning car, I had a dinner invite, went to the movies, chilled an afternoon with a friend and went out for breakfast. That’s it. It was all nice but I’m currently having a moment where I’m annoyed with everyone being a mom or pregnant. Not cause I’m jealous or I’m a mean person – I love them all dearly including the kids – but there comes a point where being the only non-parent at the table gets frustrating and boring. It’s probably just a phase.

So yeah, I’ll just continue being a negative Nancy. I have zero motivation for life and just hide in my room while trying to figure out what would make me happy. Spring would be a nice start cause I find winter depressing. Being healthy and having a properly functioning car would make a huge difference. And hopefully some fun things for my birthday. I was smart enough to take a few days off.

To end on a positive note, I’ve got some holidays planned. Well, I still have to plan a lot, but the flights are booked. My best friend and I are flying to Budapest, Hungary in May and my mom and I will fly to El Paso, Texas in June, where we lived for a few years when I was a child. I am so excited about this cause I’ve been wanting to go back for over 20 years and now it’s happening. And of course, I hope that more fun plans for 2020 will come together eventually.

Try and focus on the little things in life that bring you joy. Write down your thoughts and feelings. Don’t say yes to things that you know won’t bring you happiness. Admit when you’re feeling low – especially to yourself. Put in a chill Sunday with movies and snacks once in a while. Write yourself a card for Valentine’s day because you’re amazing and have a nice February.

Tons of love,

Lovely life
starting a diary again getting back into reading doggy cuddles mint-chocolate ice cream cheesy pizza crust late Christmas presents movie theater popcorn mommy taking care of me when I’m sick special junk food Lucky Charms travel plans watching celebs make a fool of themselves in the jungle just living in my dressing gown when I finish writing a story for work how my best friend just gets me pasta productive days candy boxes Super Bowl halftime show

Books I’ve read and loved
Room by Emma Donoghue
The Kissing Booth by Beth Reekles
Feminists Don’t Wear Pink by Scarlett Curtis
Everything, Everything by Nicola Yoon

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Goodbye December 2019

Goodbye to December,

and hello January. Happy new year, everyone. As you can tell by the fact that this post comes on the 20th, my resolutions are going very well. Obviously, I didn’t leave my lack of motivation in 2019. However, I like doing these recap posts, cause it gives me a good opportunity to look back on things.

Instagram December

So what about December. Overall, I would say that it was ok. I had a week off from work and even though I did spend a lot of time at the hospital, cause my mom had another knee surgery, I managed to do a few nice things for myself. I finally went swimming. At first with my bestie and my godson and after they left went for some rounds by myself. It did feel good since I hadn’t been to a pool since 2015. I should definitely go more often — still looking for that motivation to get my shit together.

I also went on a quick shopping spree at Primark. I know, this doesn’t sound too special, but once or twice a year, I drive to Frankfurt, buy lots of things I don’t need at Primark, pick up some junk food and head back home. I love it. Also went to Ikea to pick up a few bits and pieces and visited my grandma for an afternoon. So I guess my week off really wasn’t bad.

Instagram December

The rest of the month was pretty much all about Christmas. When I went somewhere, it was mostly to pick up presents and then rewarding myself with food I don’t get too often. And of course, putting up decorations, getting a tree and so on. I actually like Christmas time, but this year, I wasn’t really in the mood for it. I didn’t know what to expect since the months leading up to it weren’t the greatest, but it turned out all right. Even my mom had an ok time and we even picked up and decorated the three together, which made me pretty happy.

I think my issue was pretty much that I didn’t really have much time to prepare everything. I would just love not having to work every December or at least in between Christmas and New Year’s. Pretty much all my friends and family didn’t have to work and it would be so much easier to get together and all. It was still nice. Lots of good food, some cute presents and just overall a pretty good time. And this year, it wasn’t as stressful as it usually was. Also spent one night chatting to my best friend until like four in the morning and that alone was amazing. So yay for Christmas. Already missing all the beautiful lights everywhere.

Instagram December

So yeah, the month was ok, but I’m still glad that the year is over. A fresh start is never really a bad thing and for me, a new year feels like that. Nothing too special happened (aside from one encounter, but I’m still thinking about writing a whole post about it, cause that was something else), which I’m ok with. There were a few great moments and I’m grateful for those. So here is to many more…

Ney year – new start. Don’t put yourself under too much pressure. Make a list with some fun things you would like to do in 2020. Spend more time with the people closest to you. Say “no” if you don’t feel like doing something. Reward yourself when you need a little pick-me-up. Never forget, you’re doing amazing, sweetie.

Tons of love,

Kris Jenner

Lovely life
advent calendars Greek food making travel plans mint chocolate swimming buying things I don’t need at Primark white and pink Christmas trees anything Mean Girls themed live-action The Lion King cheesy crust pizza Starbucks Christmas lights doggy cuddles chatting all night long chicken salad sandwich finally trying Kylie cosmetics products (not that fab) all the Christmas food fondue grandmas’ kitten puzzles presents vacation time rewarding yourself handling a difficult situation like a boss breakfast with friends naps new books chocolate board games making fun of your exes (EVERYONE does it!) laughter blue skies and sunshine fake Uggs being home alone buying 90s things on Ebay that moment when you have all the Christmas presents

Instagram December

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Goodbye to the last five months of my life

Goodbye to the last five months of my life,

and hello December. How is the end of the year right around the corner? Although I must say, I’m not mad about it. Man, I really don’t know what happened, but all of a sudden, everything went downhill and turned my life into a bit of a shitshow. I would honestly love to tell you guys that I’ve simply been busy having the time of my life and just didn’t have time for blogging. Well, I didn’t have time or the nerve, but not cause of fun things. So I will share a bit or what happened since June ended.

This is gonna be a long one…

July didn’t start out being super terrible. Aside from car troubles that ended up continuing for months, the first week included an amazing concert by the incredible P!nk. My mom and I had been wanting to see her forever and I can say for sure, she doesn’t disappoint. Before and after the concert it was a bit stressful though, cause stupid me bought the wrong tickets (we solved it) and our car almost got towed, which wasn’t entirely our fault, but ended up being really expensive.

Another highlight was visiting a Retro Games Con and I definitely went a bit nuts. I bought an old Gameboy with lots of new games to play on it. And I finally got my hands on Bomberman for Super Nintendo. I will forever be stuck in the 90s and I’m not sorry about it.

Also in July, we celebrated one of my Grandmother’s 90th birthday. How incredible is that?! I always tell her that she’s gonna reach at least 100. I also loved having my other Grandma’s dog over for a night, cause he’s just the sweetest and I enjoyed some time with my godson, as well as a wonderful breakfast with my bestie in my favorite cafe. So far so good.

But then, things went south at work. I will not go into detail much, cause I’m not stupid enough to share work details online. I still have a job, but it’s pretty bad. The good thing: I don’t have emotional breakdowns regularly anymore and I just try to figure it all out without losing my sanity. I’m pretty sure that any doctor would diagnose me with burnout though, but I do feel better, compared to the first month after things got tough.

August was mostly terrible cause of work, which was enough to deal with. Believe me. And not to forget my car still going on regular strikes. Since I was too exhausted for anything pretty much all the time, there were only two highlights that made it all a little bit better: My godson was baptized, so I am now officially his godmother and it fills me with so much joy and pride. I can’t wait for all the things we will do together in the future.

The other great thing was attending a 90s open air with my bestie. I had VIP-tickets, so we just had the best time. The list of my teenage idols that I experienced live on stage is constantly growing. The music just gives me the most joy and that whole day was a ton of fun.

And then came September. My grandma died. Just three weeks before, we celebrated her 81st birthday. I mean yes, she wasn’t doing very well, but we never thought that she would go. But then she did and everyone who has lost a beloved family member knows how hard it is. Her funeral was nice and also terrible. And she will forever be missed. Her passing also left the family with so much work and things to deal with. And I’ve been trying to help as much as possible. Let’s just say my back has been terrible for months now.

We also adopted grandma’s dog. It was the best decision for him, but it’s so much work and it makes planning a lot harder. He’s honestly the cutest and I love him so much, but it can be complicated. Gladly, I can work from home or take him to work with me, but often it’s like “Hey, we’re gone for the weekend” or something like that and then I’m stuck with him. Good thing I don’t have much of a social life and he loves to sleep in just like me.

So the whole month was a mixture of grieving and taking care of a million things that were exhausting for mind and body. And spending a lot of time with the doggy. Gladly, my bestie has a dog as well, so we go on doggy-dates, which I love. We often get waffles after.

Aside from that, I left the house like twice for fun. Went to a Chinese buffet with friends and to a fun birthday party from one of my colleagues. Bouncy castle included. And I almost forgot: My brother crashed my mom’s car. Thank heavens, he was ok – the car not so much. Can you even believe that these things just kept happening?!

October was actually ok in comparison, aside from the fact that I had a big fat cold and ended up having to buy a new car. Fun. Now all my savings are gone. But at least I can drive again. Gladly, my family helped with finding a good one and checking it out, picking it up, etc. Otherwise, I would’ve been so screwed. Not being able to drive is just the worst. However, I did manage to visit my favorite amusement park, cause my friends picked me up. It was their birthday gift for me (it took from February to October to make it happen) and with everything going on, it felt really good. Laughter is just the best medicine.

I finally had two weeks off from work, but mainly helped my family with all kinds of things. I would’ve loved to go on holiday with my mom, but that didn’t work cause of the dog. At least there were two swap parties, which are always the best thing ever. And OMG before I forget, I cut off all my hair. Yup, I pretty much have a bob cut now. I still have mixed feelings about it, but there is nothing I can do. But everyone tells me that it looks fab, so I will just believe them.

November was pretty much same old, same old. I spent a lot of time with the doggy, there were another swap party and a few days just running errands, etc. At least my motivation for getting things done for myself has reappeared a bit. The best thing though was my baby boy godson turning one. How crazy is that?! How the hell can he be ONE YEAR OLD? Insane. They grow up too fast, although I am looking forward to him being a bit older and able to walk and all, so we can go on fabulous adventures together.

So yeah, this was all a bit too much. And it’s not even everything. But you probably get the point. Constantly more stress, more and more things to deal with and you know what? There is no end in sight, cause, of course, my mom has to have another operation on her knee this month. It’s safe to say that the second half of 2019 can go fu*k itself. I just want it all to be over.

If you’ve gotten this far, thanks for sticking through all my moaning. It’s just been a rough few months and I’m just gonna be a bit moody, sad, tired and stressed until this year is over. I just needed to write it all down. And I have to get back doing things for myself. Like blogging, scrapbooking, etc. Oh, you know what was nice? Buying boxes for like 200 Euro from IKEA and getting all my things properly stored and organized. Now that was satisfying.

Ok, done. Glad I wrote something, not feeling too great about the content. I’m so positive, it’s insane. Anyway, everything will get better eventually. I mean, right?!?!?! Feel free to tell me about the fabulous things in your life, cause I can still be super happy for others and it takes my mind off all the annoying things.

Stop and smell the Christmas trees. Put up some decorations. Buy something cute for yourself when you buy all the Christmas presents. Watch all the holiday movies and listen to Christmas music. Spend some quality time with friends and family. Have a cozy day in on the weekends.

Tons of love,

Lovely life
Yes, I will still try to focus on the little things in life that make it all a little less annoying.

doggy cuddles retro games swap parties getting some fresh air baby giggles Chinese food fall TV schedule bouncy castles P!nk live my new car amusement parks organizing everything with boxes waffles tabletop soccer losing weight without even trying fall 90s concerts laughing with my best friends a pretty new haircut foreign candy decluttering the whole house making fun of your exes with your besties (always the best entertainment) rewatching Twilight helping sleeping in with the doggy compliments shopping trips with my 90-year-old grandma

My July-November posts
Haha, yeah right!

My July-November Instagrams

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Goodbye June 2019

Goodbye June,

and hello July. How are we already in the second half of the year? That’s just insane. But I hope the year continues with lots of fun things because the first six months were pretty good.

For me, the highlight of June was definitely my trip to London. My brother and I went on a little vacation and had a great time. I’ve been to the city before, but there is always more to see and I’m sure, it wasn’t my last visit. The main reason for us to go was the Spice Girls concert at Wembley stadium and what can I say: It was just absolutely amazing. A childhood dream came true and I will forever be happy but also sad that it’s over. I’m definitely hoping that they decide to do a world tour and hopefully then, I can see them again. Words can’t even describe how happy it made me seeing them being absolutely flawless and killing it. Worth every penny.

Insta mix June

Also, we did the Warner Bros. Studio Tour – The Making of Harry Potter and I will honestly rave to anyone about it, who wants to hear it. The experience was incredible and I had so much fun. The rest of the time, we visited specific shops I wanted to go to, strolled around Notting Hill in search of pretty houses and a bunch of other touristy things like the M&M Store. Unfortunately, I live for pulling your money out of your pockets kind of things. But whatever makes you happy, right?! Overall, we had a really good time and I’m glad we didn’t rip each others’ head off. There was a high chance for it to happen, but nope, we got along just fine.

Another highlight was seeing the Backstreet Boys live. Can you tell that I’m completely stuck in the 90s? Anyway, it was my second time witnessing their incredible talent on stage and again, I had the best time. Even in their 40s, they still got it goin’ on. And you know what, they make an effort. The Spice Girls as well. They sing and dance for two hours straight, definitely know how to entertain and their voices still sound like nothing has changed. I mean, so many artists nowadays can learn a lot from them.

Insta Mix June

Aside from these really big things, there was not much else going on, except for a fun swap party, which I love so much. And I also went out to dinner with some of my colleagues and it was one of those evenings, where your whole face just hurts from all the laughter. So.Much.Fun. Oh, and I had my grandma’s dog over for a week and we went outside a lot, which felt good, but I still don’t want a pet.

But of course, the universe never really lets you enjoy your life for too long, right? Every damn time, when everything is just going great and you have zero problems, some catastrophe emerges. So basically, first my car decided to die on me and then my phone. Now I know that these things are just materialistic, but if there are two things I need, it’s my car and phone. I need it for work, I need it for my life, cause from where I live, I ain’t getting anywhere without some wheels. And anyone who uses their phone more than just an occasional call knows that it just feels terrible. And then you feel bad about feeling terrible, cause at the end of the day it’s “just a phone”, but still. Nobody needs these things. That definitely put my good mood to a stop. I mean, I have a new phone now and my car is getting fixed, although it would make sense to buy a new one, but all the money… It’s just super annoying!

Insta Mix June

So yeah, that was it for June. I also dared to stay home for two whole weekends, but sometimes, all you have to do is chill. And it was too hot, anyways. I’m definitely eager to make lots of plans for the upcoming months, though. I have so many things I want to do and so many people to meet with and there are only six months left. And those better be good. No more interruptions. Universe, I’m talking to you.

Try and make some of your childhood dreams come true. Cry and get it out of your system if you feel like it and then soldier on. Drink lots and lots of water. Cherish those special little moments. Treat yourself to something nice. Stand up for yourself, you deserve to be respected. Put together an activity/trip list with everything you’re interested in and then start planning. Have a fabulous month of July.

Tons of love,

London Trevor Square

Lovely life
seeing my childhood idols live in concert souvenir photos bank holiday’s traveling London Spice Girls concert Backstreet Boys concert pastel houses Paddington Bear Notting Hill taking fun pictures airports buying lots of cute things relaxing weekends merchandise Rice Krispies Treats new phone Warner Bros. Studio Tour London – The Making of Harry Potter having grandma’s dog for a week going for nice walks having a good time with my colleagues my cute Disney trolley swap parties hearing my baby godson laugh Moomins souvenirs backpacks and hip bags quality family time cute pens having the house to myself

My June posts
Goodbye May 2019 // Photography: Supercandy Pop-Up Museum, Cologne // 10 Things To Do In Porto // What I Miss About The 90s // Photography: Warner Bros. Studio Tour London – The Making of Harry Potter

My June Instagrams
Instagram June

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