Yes, yes, I’m super late with this but that won’t keep me from wishing all of you a happy new year. I have a good excuse though: I’ve been pretty sick for a whole week now and I really can’t remember when I last felt this terrible. So even though I didn’t have plans for NYE, I couldn’t have done anything even if I wanted to. Man, will there ever be a year when I feel like celebrating? 2016 was definitely not it. I mean, what the hell was this? I’m sure I don’t even have to say anything about all the terrible things that went on in the world, and I wouldn’t even know where to begin, anyway. We can just all hope that it will get better, although I definitely have my doubts. But we can show more respect and understanding for one another. We can show love for others, despite our differences, and always keep an open mind. Spreading hate is what got us all into this mess, in the first place, and it’s just such a waste of time.
For many people, 2016 was a complete joke, including myself. I really had high hopes for the past year, but literally nothing worked out and it made me feel sooo incredibly bad. Especially being unemployed for the whole year drove me insane and it still hurts that, even though I did so much to achieve my goals, I just didn’t succeed at getting what I want. So without a job, money, motivation and mental health issues, you can imagine how great my year was. And before you get all up in my face and tell me that other people have much worse things to deal with, trust me, I know. But that doesn’t eliminate mine or anyone else’s problems and you still have to deal with it.
I know it’s wrong to start the new year with being negative, something I really have to work on, but it’s definitely not always easy. The thing is, when I reflect on the happy moments of last year, I can’t come up with a ton and when I tell you what actually made me happy for a little while, you’ll see how trivial most of these things are, but I guess it’s the little things that matter.
♥ I saw Adele live and it was absolutely amazing. It still leaves me speechless just thinking about it.
♥ I hit 1k followers on Twitter which made me really happy.
♥ I visited a huge amusement park (Europa-Park) that I wanted to check out forever.
♥ Pokémon Go seriously gave me life and I still love playing it.
♥ All the great TV shows I’ve watched and I can’t even tell you how many I managed to binge.
♥ An awesome 90s open air party/concert where I really felt pure happiness.
♥ Those rare occasions when my brother wasn’t a douche and we had fun doing things like watching soccer or going shopping.
♥ Fun date or chill nights with my lovies. Food, movies, gossip, drinks – always a good idea.
♥ My new hot pink Birkenstock’s made me extremely happy.
♥ Good books that I didn’t read enough of.
♥ The girls and me did a super fun canoeing tour in July and I hope we’ll do it again this year.
♥ I loved following the Euro 2016 and the Olympics.
♥ I met so many lovely people through Social Media, who are always supportive, understanding and lovely.
♥ When I took a ride on a ferris wheel or on a beautiful merry-go-round.
So those were a few things that made me smile this year, which were not that many. It was pretty rough for me. Lots of ups and downs, lots of emotional issues, lots of sadness but a new year is great to set some goals and my number one goal is just to find happiness. I can’t really tell you when I was truly happy the last time and it makes my life a lot harder than it shoud be. I’m sure that when I find happiness, and I have no clue where to even look for it, everything else will fall back into place. So I don’t care much for losing weight (I wouldn’t mind though), or thousands of followers (but please do follow me), I just want to be happy again. This may sound stupid for some people but I’m pretty sure that this would help me the most. But I know that people love to put together some resolutions and goals, so I did put together a small list.
♥ Find happiness.
♥ Stop being negative, all the time.
♥ Get comfortable with the job I started this year.
♥ Read more books.
♥ Buy a new car.
♥ Gain more followers but no specific numbers. I try not to obsess.
♥ Stick to my one-line-a-day-book. (I already suck at it!)
♥ Regular blogging.
♥ A little trip to somewhere nice.
So yeah, this is my new year’s post. I hope that I’ll be back to health soon, although I feel like this may still take a while, since I currently have more than one health issue. And more than anything, I hope that by the end of the year, I will just be happy with whatever my situation is. I know that it’s going to be a very long way and unfortunately I don’t know where to start, but it is what it is.
I’ve already talked to a few people on Twitter and I know that a lot of them can relate to my feelings. It’s just nice to have a community where you can share your issues with others and people support each other. So I really hope that everyone manages to achieve some of their goals for the new year and just ultimately finds happiness. We all deserve it, even in the biggest chaos, we all deserve to be happy. Let’s make that our number one goal.
Sending you lots of love ♥ ♥ ♥