Goodbye to January,
and hello February aka my birthday month. Man, I am so happy that January is over cause for me that was one hell of a shitshow. Why do I even get my hopes up at the beginning of each year that it will all be sunshine and rainbows?! I should know better.
The month started off with me accidentally crashing my phone screen cause I’m an idiot and never learn. It also was an omen for how the rest of January will be. Remember how I constantly had car trouble last year and then finally caved and used all my savings to buy a new one? Well, cars seem to hate me, so I had three visits to the repair shop and every time I drive somewhere I have a bad feeling cause I just can’t trust cars anymore. Fab.
And because I wasn’t stressed out enough already, I got stuck with the flu TWICE. The first one gladly only lasted like 24 hours but was absolutely horrible. I even broke down in our hallway. The second round lasted over one and a half weeks and is gladly finally better. I hardly leave the house and I have no idea where I got it from. Super fun.
So in between being sick and not having a functioning car, I had a dinner invite, went to the movies, chilled an afternoon with a friend and went out for breakfast. That’s it. It was all nice but I’m currently having a moment where I’m annoyed with everyone being a mom or pregnant. Not cause I’m jealous or I’m a mean person – I love them all dearly including the kids – but there comes a point where being the only non-parent at the table gets frustrating and boring. It’s probably just a phase.
So yeah, I’ll just continue being a negative Nancy. I have zero motivation for life and just hide in my room while trying to figure out what would make me happy. Spring would be a nice start cause I find winter depressing. Being healthy and having a properly functioning car would make a huge difference. And hopefully some fun things for my birthday. I was smart enough to take a few days off.
To end on a positive note, I’ve got some holidays planned. Well, I still have to plan a lot, but the flights are booked. My best friend and I are flying to Budapest, Hungary in May and my mom and I will fly to El Paso, Texas in June, where we lived for a few years when I was a child. I am so excited about this cause I’ve been wanting to go back for over 20 years and now it’s happening. And of course, I hope that more fun plans for 2020 will come together eventually.
Try and focus on the little things in life that bring you joy. Write down your thoughts and feelings. Don’t say yes to things that you know won’t bring you happiness. Admit when you’re feeling low – especially to yourself. Put in a chill Sunday with movies and snacks once in a while. Write yourself a card for Valentine’s day because you’re amazing and have a nice February.
Tons of love,
♡ starting a diary again ♡ getting back into reading ♡ doggy cuddles ♡ mint-chocolate ice cream ♡ cheesy pizza crust ♡ late Christmas presents ♡ movie theater popcorn ♡ mommy taking care of me when I’m sick ♡ special junk food ♡ Lucky Charms ♡ travel plans ♡ watching celebs make a fool of themselves in the jungle ♡ just living in my dressing gown ♡ when I finish writing a story for work ♡ how my best friend just gets me ♡ pasta ♡ productive days ♡ candy boxes ♡ Super Bowl halftime show ♡
Books I’ve read and loved
♡ Room by Emma Donoghue
♡ The Kissing Booth by Beth Reekles
♡ Feminists Don’t Wear Pink by Scarlett Curtis
♡ Everything, Everything by Nicola Yoon