Goodbye to the last five months of my life

Goodbye to the last five months of my life,

and hello December. How is the end of the year right around the corner? Although I must say, I’m not mad about it. Man, I really don’t know what happened, but all of a sudden, everything went downhill and turned my life into a bit of a shitshow. I would honestly love to tell you guys that I’ve simply been busy having the time of my life and just didn’t have time for blogging. Well, I didn’t have time or the nerve, but not cause of fun things. So I will share a bit or what happened since June ended.

This is gonna be a long one…

July didn’t start out being super terrible. Aside from car troubles that ended up continuing for months, the first week included an amazing concert by the incredible P!nk. My mom and I had been wanting to see her forever and I can say for sure, she doesn’t disappoint. Before and after the concert it was a bit stressful though, cause stupid me bought the wrong tickets (we solved it) and our car almost got towed, which wasn’t entirely our fault, but ended up being really expensive.

Another highlight was visiting a Retro Games Con and I definitely went a bit nuts. I bought an old Gameboy with lots of new games to play on it. And I finally got my hands on Bomberman for Super Nintendo. I will forever be stuck in the 90s and I’m not sorry about it.

Also in July, we celebrated one of my Grandmother’s 90th birthday. How incredible is that?! I always tell her that she’s gonna reach at least 100. I also loved having my other Grandma’s dog over for a night, cause he’s just the sweetest and I enjoyed some time with my godson, as well as a wonderful breakfast with my bestie in my favorite cafe. So far so good.

But then, things went south at work. I will not go into detail much, cause I’m not stupid enough to share work details online. I still have a job, but it’s pretty bad. The good thing: I don’t have emotional breakdowns regularly anymore and I just try to figure it all out without losing my sanity. I’m pretty sure that any doctor would diagnose me with burnout though, but I do feel better, compared to the first month after things got tough.

August was mostly terrible cause of work, which was enough to deal with. Believe me. And not to forget my car still going on regular strikes. Since I was too exhausted for anything pretty much all the time, there were only two highlights that made it all a little bit better: My godson was baptized, so I am now officially his godmother and it fills me with so much joy and pride. I can’t wait for all the things we will do together in the future.

The other great thing was attending a 90s open air with my bestie. I had VIP-tickets, so we just had the best time. The list of my teenage idols that I experienced live on stage is constantly growing. The music just gives me the most joy and that whole day was a ton of fun.

And then came September. My grandma died. Just three weeks before, we celebrated her 81st birthday. I mean yes, she wasn’t doing very well, but we never thought that she would go. But then she did and everyone who has lost a beloved family member knows how hard it is. Her funeral was nice and also terrible. And she will forever be missed. Her passing also left the family with so much work and things to deal with. And I’ve been trying to help as much as possible. Let’s just say my back has been terrible for months now.

We also adopted grandma’s dog. It was the best decision for him, but it’s so much work and it makes planning a lot harder. He’s honestly the cutest and I love him so much, but it can be complicated. Gladly, I can work from home or take him to work with me, but often it’s like “Hey, we’re gone for the weekend” or something like that and then I’m stuck with him. Good thing I don’t have much of a social life and he loves to sleep in just like me.

So the whole month was a mixture of grieving and taking care of a million things that were exhausting for mind and body. And spending a lot of time with the doggy. Gladly, my bestie has a dog as well, so we go on doggy-dates, which I love. We often get waffles after.

Aside from that, I left the house like twice for fun. Went to a Chinese buffet with friends and to a fun birthday party from one of my colleagues. Bouncy castle included. And I almost forgot: My brother crashed my mom’s car. Thank heavens, he was ok – the car not so much. Can you even believe that these things just kept happening?!

October was actually ok in comparison, aside from the fact that I had a big fat cold and ended up having to buy a new car. Fun. Now all my savings are gone. But at least I can drive again. Gladly, my family helped with finding a good one and checking it out, picking it up, etc. Otherwise, I would’ve been so screwed. Not being able to drive is just the worst. However, I did manage to visit my favorite amusement park, cause my friends picked me up. It was their birthday gift for me (it took from February to October to make it happen) and with everything going on, it felt really good. Laughter is just the best medicine.

I finally had two weeks off from work, but mainly helped my family with all kinds of things. I would’ve loved to go on holiday with my mom, but that didn’t work cause of the dog. At least there were two swap parties, which are always the best thing ever. And OMG before I forget, I cut off all my hair. Yup, I pretty much have a bob cut now. I still have mixed feelings about it, but there is nothing I can do. But everyone tells me that it looks fab, so I will just believe them.

November was pretty much same old, same old. I spent a lot of time with the doggy, there were another swap party and a few days just running errands, etc. At least my motivation for getting things done for myself has reappeared a bit. The best thing though was my baby boy godson turning one. How crazy is that?! How the hell can he be ONE YEAR OLD? Insane. They grow up too fast, although I am looking forward to him being a bit older and able to walk and all, so we can go on fabulous adventures together.

So yeah, this was all a bit too much. And it’s not even everything. But you probably get the point. Constantly more stress, more and more things to deal with and you know what? There is no end in sight, cause, of course, my mom has to have another operation on her knee this month. It’s safe to say that the second half of 2019 can go fu*k itself. I just want it all to be over.

If you’ve gotten this far, thanks for sticking through all my moaning. It’s just been a rough few months and I’m just gonna be a bit moody, sad, tired and stressed until this year is over. I just needed to write it all down. And I have to get back doing things for myself. Like blogging, scrapbooking, etc. Oh, you know what was nice? Buying boxes for like 200 Euro from IKEA and getting all my things properly stored and organized. Now that was satisfying.

Ok, done. Glad I wrote something, not feeling too great about the content. I’m so positive, it’s insane. Anyway, everything will get better eventually. I mean, right?!?!?! Feel free to tell me about the fabulous things in your life, cause I can still be super happy for others and it takes my mind off all the annoying things.

Stop and smell the Christmas trees. Put up some decorations. Buy something cute for yourself when you buy all the Christmas presents. Watch all the holiday movies and listen to Christmas music. Spend some quality time with friends and family. Have a cozy day in on the weekends.

Tons of love,

Lovely life
Yes, I will still try to focus on the little things in life that make it all a little less annoying.

doggy cuddles retro games swap parties getting some fresh air baby giggles Chinese food fall TV schedule bouncy castles P!nk live my new car amusement parks organizing everything with boxes waffles tabletop soccer losing weight without even trying fall 90s concerts laughing with my best friends a pretty new haircut foreign candy decluttering the whole house making fun of your exes with your besties (always the best entertainment) rewatching Twilight helping sleeping in with the doggy compliments shopping trips with my 90-year-old grandma

My July-November posts
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My July-November Instagrams

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