12 things I learned from Disney Princesses

Many people often criticize Disney for planting unrealistic images in the heads of children about appearance, love, friendship and everything else. Personally, I think that it is more important what parents teach their kids so they know that a movie is just a movie and should not be taken too seriously. I am a huge Disney fan. I would even say that I am a fanatic. I dedicate a lot of time and money to Disney and it has always been an important part of my life. I collect all the movies, I have a ton of merchandize and my collection is constantly growing. I even took a Disney class at university and I also wrote my BA thesis and several papers about the franchise. My thesis focussed on Disney Princesses and pointed out that not everything depicted on-screen conveys a negative image to young girls. I had good arguments and evidence, but my teacher wasn’t a fan of my concept, since she simply had the same opinion as everyone. I guess it’s always hard to prove something opposite of the general opinion. I still think that there is a lot of good in these movies and here is a list of 12 things I learned from Disney Princesses.

1. Whistle while you work
Ever since I heard Snow White sing this wonderful song, while cleaning the whole house, I find housework much less annoying. Everything works better with music. I may not whistle but I sure put on a good song and sing. Usually, I prefer 90s music because it really get’s me going. So when you hear the Backstreet Boys or the Spice Girls blasting from my room, you know that I’m in cleaning mode.

2. You can be pretty and intelligent
Out of all the princesses, Belle is my absolute favorite. She is pretty, she is kind and she loves to read. Learning about how she indulges herself in written stories always reminds me of myself. There is a known stereotype that declares beautiful women as stupid, which is complete nonsense and no girl in the world should think that she is one or another, but that she is both. I do think that reading makes you smarter and being a bookworm is totally cool. Also, the way that many other Princesses act within their movies show a lot of intelligence and smart thinking. Without that, for example Mulan, Tiana or Pocahontas would not have gotten as far as they did.

3. There is nothing more important than family
What I liked most about the movie Frozen is the strong connection that Anna feels toward Elsa, despite the fact that they did not spend a lot of time with each other growing up. Even after Elsa fails to control herself any longer and leaves her whole life behind, including her sister, Anna does whatever she can to find her and get her back. In the end, it is the strong bond of sisterhood that prevents Anna from dying and yes, I had tears in my eyes.

4. It takes courage and determination to make a change for others and/or yourself
It is never a nice feeling when someone underestimates you or tries to tell you what you can and can’t do. Especially for girls, it is frustrating to constantly be declared as the weak sex and to hear that we can’t do what men can and that all around the world, people still try to force us to do things that we don’t want to do. Some of the Disney Princesses give great examples of how empowering it is to stand up for yourself and that you can do and be, whatever you want to be. Mulan pretends to be a boy and joins the army to protect her father and proves that she can keep up with any male figure and ultimately, she saves everyone by using her strength and her brain. Pocahontas won’t let her father tell her who to marry and with her strong will-power, she manages to create peace between the Native Americans and the white settlers. Princess Jasmine ends up marrying a poor boy from the street who earned her father’s respect, which is definitely not in the book for princesses. They believed in something and were determined to prove others wrong and to achieve their goal.

5. You don’t need a man to save the day
As a woman of the 21st century, I adore Pocahontas for staying with her people, even though that means to say goodbye to her lover. She sacrifices her feelings and choses to become the leader of her tribe and not the woman of someone from another world. Personally, I think that the end of this movie is one of the most powerful messages of all Disney movies.

6. Do not be afraid of new adventures
I admit that I was often afraid of new adventures. I’m am definitely not spontaneous and I like do know what I’m getting myself into. But since 2014, I’ve been working on it because life is too short to be afraid of new and exciting things. I admire Jasmine for going against herself and giving a stranger a chance, who takes her on a magic carpet ride and wins her heart. (I’m not saying that you should run off with a stranger!) I love when Cinderella attends the ball, without knowing what is going to happen. And of course Ariel, who trades in her voice for legs because she wants to explore the world above the sea. Sometimes, you just have to take risks and often, you will be rewarded.

7. Animals are your best friends
In pretty much every Disney movies animals play an important role. They are loyal companions through thick and thin and faithfully support their owner in every situation. Cinderella has the best animal friends of all. Birds, mice, a dog, a horse and they all help her through pretty rough times. Of course, we don’t have mice in our lives who can sew a dress, but what is important to notice is that with an animal by your side, you always have a faithful friend right next to you. If you ever had a pet, you know how wonderful the connection feels and how you enjoy coming home to someone who is impatiently waiting for you. Always treat animals like you want to be treated yourself and you’ll have a friend for life.

8. Never judge a book by it’s cover
We live in a shallow world where everybody is judged based on looks and we often forget that there is more to a person. It doesn’t matter where you are from, how you look, what you are wearing, what skin color you have, you deserve a chance. Belle showed us all by learning to love the Beast for what is on his inside and Pocahontas sure taught John Smith and all of us a lesson.

9. Fitting in is for boring people
Fitting in was never part of my lifestyle. I always had a thing for standing out and I really think that everyone should be true to themselves, no matter what others say or think. Merida and Mulan are awesome examples for little girls because of their bravery and the fact that they fight against conventions. Mulan does not want to be a pretty geisha housewife and Merida is not interested in forced marriage. Both of them have a strong character and they embrace their uniqueness. These characters also show that it takes a while to figure out who you are and who you want to be and that this is a normal process when you’re growing up.

10. Follow your dreams
This is one of the most important lessons that anyone can learn. We all have ideas, hopes and dreams but we’re often afraid to pursue them. If Disney Princesses show one thing it is determination to get what they want to. Pocahontas wants to make her own decisions and create peace between the Native Americans and the white settlers. She hears an inner voice that tells her something great is going to happen and that she should follow her heart because it will guide her toward the rigth path. Ariel wants to live above the sea. Tiana wants her own restaurant. Cinderella wants to go to the ball and meet the prince. They all succeed because they do whatever it takes to get there.

11. You have to work hard to achieve your goal
Tiana was the first Princess to have an actual job, even after marrying a prince. All her life, she wanted to open up her own restaurant and she works as hard as she can to reach her goal. She is an inspiration and shows that you don’t need a man to fulfill your dreams and that you don’t have to give them up for one, as well.

12. Embrace diversity
Taking all Disney Princesses into account, it is visible that Disney tries to present diversity. While the early princesses where all white, the depiction has changed a lot, over the years. Pocahontas is Native American, Mulan is Asian, Jasmine is from the Orient, Tiana is African-American and hopefully, many more ethnicities will follow. Also the modern-day princesses look more their age and are easier for little girls to identify with.

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Mixtape #4 – My Favorite Songs

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Personally, I really think that I have a pretty good taste in music. At least that is what I like to tell myself. If it is one thing though, it is diverse. There is not really a music genre that I completely rule out. So many people always claim that they love music more than anything and that it is very important to them, but then they limit their interest to one or two genres. I think when you really love music, you should be open-minded and you would be surprised what you discover. Music is one of the greatest things in the whole wide world. It carries and triggers emotions, it inspires, it consoles and it does so much more. Let music give you the soundtrack to your life. Here are some of my all-time favorites. Some of them make me smile, some of them make me cry, some accompany my greatest memories and some of them just make me want to get up and dance.

1. Damien Rice – 9 Crimes
2. Rihanna feat. Eminen – Love the Way You Lie Part II
3. Rihanna & Calvin Harris – We Found Love
4. Yiruma – River Flows in You
5. Avicii – Wake Me Up
6. Celine Dion & Peabo Bryson – Tale As Old As Time
7. Justin Bieber – As Long As You Love Me
8. Meat Loaf – I Would Do Anything for Love
9. The White Stripes – Seven Nation Army
10. The Offspring – Self-Esteem
11. Bonnie Tyler – Total Eclipse of the Heart
12. The Cranberries – Zombie
13. The Pretty Reckless – Just Tonight
14. Britney Spears – Everytime
15. Taylor Swift – I Knew You Were Trouble
16. Lil John & The East Side Boyz – Get Low
17. Toto – Africa
18. Michael Jackson – Dirty Diana
19. Eminem feat. Rihanna – Love the Way You Lie
20. Beyonce – Drunk in Love
21. Sam Smith – Stay With Me
22. Ellie Goulding – Burn
23. Marilyn Manson – Sweet Dreams
24. Aqua – Barbie Girl
25. Bandits – Catch Me
26. Pitbull feat. Ne-Yo – Give Me Everything
27. John Legend – All of me
28. Chris Isaak – Wicked Games
29. En Vogue – Don’t Let Go (Love)
30. Salt-N-Pepa – Shoop

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Just shoot me to make it go away

I try to speak but my voice is shaking
There is nothing left that I can say
Pain is creeping into my body
Just shoot me to make it go away

Where once was my heart nothing is left
You tore it out and left it with the waste
Time goes by but memories remain
Just shoot me to make it go away

I’m spinning around in circles
The past haunts me night and day
Pictures are flashing everywhere
Just shoot me to make it go away

I close my eyes and hear a piano
We once danced like no one was there
Every note stabs me like a knife
Just shoot me to make it go away

My bleeding heart is left to rot
I have no more tears to cry
Just shoot me to make it go away
So I can finally say goodbye

(Inspired by the song “9 Crimes” by Damien Rice)

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My Favorite Articles About Love, Traveling, Childcare, Disney and more…

We are three months into the new year and I thought it was time to share some of my favorite articles that I’ve read, so far. I went through my Twitter Feed, because I always share the links on Twitter, and put together a variety of articles that might be of interest to you.

Relationships/Love/Dating

#SingleGirlProblems: The 17 Reasons I’m An Undateable Girl
Since I’ve been a full-time single girl for many years now, I of course loved this list a lot. A big part of me pretty much chose to be single which in itself is something that makes me undatebale. Not everything in this article fits my attitude but most of it does. I definitely rather stay in, my tolerance for bullsh*t is so low that I can’t even see it anymore, and I’m not even gonna get started on my trust issues.

11 Things Boyfriends Just Don’t Understand
More reasons why I don’t have one. I just can’t deal with all of these things.

13 Things Not to Say to the Guy You’re Dating
Honestly, if a guy can’t handle it, he’s not my kind of guy. I can’t sugar-coat everything. If I need time for myself, deal with it and be happy that you get a free pass to spend some time with your buddies. You can also tell me if I gained weight without me leaving you. Yes, these girls do exist.

How We Write About Love
“Writing about love can be similar to falling in love in that we must be as vulnerable on the page as we are in person when revealing ourselves to someone we hope will love us back.” I find this article highly interesting because I like to write about love and relationships, myself. I definitely found myself in what is described.

Love typewriter Olympia

17 Things You Should Know Before Dating a Confident Girl
WORD! Unfortunately, not many men can handle it and so I’m single!

Warum Frauen keine netten Männer lieben
This is a German article about why women don’t love nice men. As sad as it is, there is a lot of truth in there and unfortunately, I am one of these women. Which is exactly the reason why I am single. If I try with a guy, I end up getting hurt, so I just don’t even try anymore, since I know that my taste is bad and it’s just a never-ending story.

This Is How We Date Now
The internet is totally ruining us!

10 Times Taylor Swift Knew Everything About Love
Well, of course Tay Tay knows everything and even though she’s not popular for well-functioning relationships, there is a lot of truth in her words. She is totally my spirit animal! I see it this way: you don’t have to be in great relationships to know about love. I think that when you take a step back and are not on cloud number 9, things become much more clear.

Why Readers, Scientifically, Are The Best People To Fall In Love With
This reminds me of a guy I went out with a couple of times. We never officially dated though because surprise, he was a douchebag and my co-worker.  I remember us talking about books and all he had to say was that he had never read one, except for maybe in school but he couldn’t even remember. Yes, by now I know that I should’ve just left the car. It does make a huge difference but it’s not a guarantee. But I do like the thought of lying in bed with someone, both of us reading something and then talking about it, afterward. Oh, and don’t date your co-worker.

14 Things You Should Know Before Dating a Feminist
Yes, I will most definitely not accept any form of discrimination and I’m willing to put up a fight. I will probably also fight you over who pays for the movie tickets, but you’re allowed to treat me with something nice, once in a while as long it’s when you just want to do it and you’re not doing it because you screwed up. Been there, done that! And never ever try pushing me into a classic housewife position!

Growing up/Friendship

15 Best Things About Being Close With Your Mom
My mom is my best friend and we have an awesome relationship. It’s hard not talking to her on a daily basis, but I’m 27 so it’s ok to practice some distance. I am blessed to have her by my side. She supports me no matter what and never stops believing in me.

26 Signs You Were Born and Raised in Germany
Since I moved to the US to work as an au pair, a lot of these facts become so much clearer to me. Once you leave your home country, you learn a lot about yourself and about how you see your own culture. Every time I read this list, I have to laugh because a lot of it is really true. I feel caught but if these things make me a German, I don’t mind being one. Yes, I miss our bread A LOT, sometimes I feel like the word “efficiency” cannot even be found in an American dictionary, driving in Germany is just so much more fun and hell yeah can this stupid small talk EVERYWHERE be annoying as hell. I would also like to add to the list: Is overwhelmed by a happy feeling because of really long opening hours in other countries, even on Sundays.

17 Reasons Why Your High School Best Friends Will Be Your BFFs For Life
My bff and me have been friends for 16 years. We met in fifth grade and went through EVERYTHINGogether. Heartbreaks, really strange looks, different schools, family trouble etc. Everything we experienced has only made us grow stronger as friends and I can’t even find words to express how much I miss her. She is my soulmate who knows me better than anybody else.

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34 Anzeichen dafür, dass du auf die 30 zugehst
This is a German article about 34 signs which show that you’re heading toward 30. For me, this will happen in three years and I really don’t have a clue where the hell that came from, all of a sudden. Anyway, I’m sure every twenty-something will find him- or herself in this list.

Things you can only get away with if you’re best friends
I will love my best friend forever and ever. I wouldn’t mind to wear the same outfit as she does, which will probably never happen because we are completely different. And yes, if I ever cancelled our date because of a guy, she would probably die of a heart attack and couldn’t be mad at me, anyway.

Travel

24 of the Best Cities to Visit in Germany
I think from these beautiful cities, I’ve been only to four which is pathetic, since I’m from Germany. I should’ve traveled sooo much more when I had the chance. As soon as I’m back in Europe, it’s the first thing I’m going to change. Now I know that I don’t need a ton of money for a nice trip and if I don’t find someone who wants to join me, I can just go by myself.

52 Places to Go in 2015
I’ve been to one place on the list. :( But it’s a beautiful compilation of dreamlike destinations and I really hope that one day, I can just travel the whole world. I just need to find a way to earn a lot of money first.

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Map points the way for the ultimate U.S. road trip
U.S. roadtrips are always a good idea and I will hopefully experience one in 2016. A lot of people do these because the United States are just so diverse and you get to see a new landscape in every state. One of my biggest dreams is to visit all 50 States in my life. So far I’m down to maybe ten, but I’m not even sure. While I’m still living here, I will definitely try to travel the country as often as possible.

26 Real Places That Look Like They’ve Been Taken Out Of Fairy Tales
I think it’s incredible how beautiful the world is. It makes me almost forget all the problems all around and how people everywhere are destroying the planet and each other. I really want to see Neuschwanstein Castle, which is like only a five-hour drive. I could also take a peek at Munich, while I’m so far in the South of Germany. Here is what I’ll do: Munich – Neuschwanstein – Vienna. Who wants to join me?

15 Secret Things In SF You Had No Idea Existed
Since I live in this beautiful city, I can totally visit all of these cute places.

These 19 Gardens Bring Fairy Tales To Life
I wish I knew where all of these are and if you can actually visit them. They look absolutely lovely and definitely fairytale-worthy. I’m not the most outdoorsy type of person, but these are too pretty not to see. I just don’t like bugs and things like that.

Ryanair plans to offer flights between Europe and the US
If this will really happen, it will be one of the greatest things ever. Often, flights to the US are just sooo damn expensive and not everyone can afford it. If they would’ve been cheaper, I would’ve definitely visited this country more often and maybe would’ve found out earlier that it’s not the right country for me to live in.

Disney

What It’s Really Like to Be a Disney Princess
Let’s be honest, I’ve thought about becoming a Disney Princess several times in my life. I’m just such a Disney fanatic and being Belle would be a dream come true. However, as you can imagine it’s definitely not an easy job and I learned a lot about the whole Disney industry over the last couple of years, so I kind of expected that the working conditions are not the best. This is an article from a former Belle and it’s insane what they have to endure. So I might not audition to become an official Disney Princess at Disneyland and just wear my own Belle costume whenever I feel like it.

13 Signs That Being a Disney Princess Is NOT for You
Yes, most of this is true, except for the fact that I like spontaneous singing and dancing in public and I whistle while I work. Good music makes the job so much easier and more fun.

13 Inscrutable Requirements to Be A Princesses In Disney Parks
Again, I guess it’s not for me, after all. I’m too old, not a size 10 and if some creepy dad would try to touch me, I would just punch him in the face!

Those moments Disney characters perfectly summed up our quarter-life crisis
I could’ve totally written this. Yes Belle, “I want so much more than this provincial life” myself, yes Alice, I should definitely follow my own advice and Scar just made me laugh really hard because that’s exactly what’s on my mind 24/7.

The Lion King Scar I'm surrounded by idiots

Some Guy Ranks the 14 Hottest Disney Princesses
Yeah, I don’t know. In reality, this ranking looks a little different. Jasmine’s beauty is much too intimidating, Belle is too smart, Mulan would totally kick your ass, which is definitely too much to handle and Nala is a freaking Lion. Yeah, guys claim they like these things but then go for the exact opposite.

15 Surprising Facts about your Fave Disney Princesses
Just some additional information if you’re really, really interested in Disney Princesses.

Childcare

How to Parent Like a German
I’m not saying that German parents are the best and that they do everything right, but I’m currently working as an au pair in the States and what I see here everyday is shocking and often disturbing to a European like me. I feel sorry for these children, who often don’t even get the chance to just be kids. They are raised by au pairs, nannies etc. and are often overprotected, which in itself doesn’t make sense, since many parents are never there anyway. But when they are, they read too many nonsense articles and consult the doctor for every little thing. And I’m not even gonna start about the fact that some people put their kids into child care facilities when they are only a few weeks old. All I can do everyday is shake my head.

Die hysterische Kultur des Nanny-Staats USA
A German article about how American children just never get the chance to be children. Either because of laws or crazy overthinking/protecting parents. It’s the land of the free where especially the kids are never really free. Except when they want to have a gun. That’s possible.

25 Times Kids Were Just Friggin The Worst
I love children but I definitely don’t want my own. These pictures remind me exactly of why it’s just not for me.

20 Reasons to Be Thankful You Don’t Have Children
More reasons why I don’t want children.

Are successful women unsuccessful mums?
A little reading never hurt anybody but what a lot of parents have to learn is the fact that every child is different and that not everything that you read in a book will happen to/with your child in the exact same way. Stop reading, stop comparing and just spend time with your kids and get to know them. You’d be surprised how much you learn. And seriously, raising a child is a mixture of love and logic – something I truly miss here in the US.

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Mix

Are All Terrorists Muslims? It’s Not Even Close
In terms of topics, this article doesn’t really fit into this post, but I think it’s a very important article to read. If there is one thing I hate, it’s prejudices and Muslims have to take shit from everyone. I have wonderful Muslim friends and I can assure you that they’re not terrorists. Also, people forget all the non-Muslim people who are terrorists. Just read this article and you’ll be surprised what statistics will tell you, if you’re open to listening.

7 Signs You’re In A Serious Relationship With Netflix
I don’t think I have to comment much on this. I totally miss having cable TV, but Netflix is definitely a good alternative. I especially love the fact that you can watch a lot of old shows like “Babysitters Club” or “Saved by the Bell.” And of course, I totally binge-watched “Pretty Little Liars.” I had actual nightmares because I watched sooo many episodes all through the night and they can get pretty creepy.

21 Euphoric Experiences For People Obsessed With Office Supplies
I know it sounds crazy, but stationery lovers are good people too. I love going to these stores and so far, I’ve spent a lot of money on stickers, pens, paper etc. I have like 10 organizers and a whole box full of empty notebooks. I’m really trying to buy less of it, since I have so much that I’m probably never gonna use it all, but the Dollar spot at Target get’s me every time!

 Life in Rosewood vs. Real Life
Highschool life on-screen is always so much cooler than it is in real life. Honestly, back in the days I tried really hard to make reality  into a highschool movie. In my head, I always lived in one. I even passed around vocabulary sheets, where I included words and phrases from “Clueless,” “10 Things I Hate About You” and more. Every girly movie I watched had an impact on the way I acted, dressed or decorated my room. And nowadays, “Pretty Little Liars” is another show with beautiful teenage girls (at least on-screen) who influence teenagers all around the world. But trust me when I tell you that no matter how hard you try, it’s never going to be like on-screen. And where does reality hide all of those cute date-worthy teachers? I’ve never seen one. I do know enough mean or creepy ones, though.

The 30 Most Influential People on the Internet
We live in a century where Kim Kardashian and Barack Obama, President of the United States, make it onto the same list. Enough said. Oh, and yay for Beyoncé and Taylor Swift.

32 Movie Quotes Guaranteed To Make You Laugh Every Time
Honestly, I haven’t watched all of these movies, but every list that includes “Clueless” or “Mean Girls” quotes is my kind of list!

50 Things That Are Just Irrelevant
This cracks me up, every time. “When your teacher tells you you can’t use Spark Notes. IRRELEVANT.” Or Wikipedia. Like anyone ever cared about that. You just have to know how to use the source, without anyone being able to notice that you did. “When you’re starving even though you just had lunch. IRRELEVANT.” Story of my life! “When you’re trying to stalk someone, but their Insta is private. IRRELEVANT.” Yeah people, stop putting your stupid profiles on private. ANY profile. Stalking is the essence of my life and you’re taking away my air to breathe. I could go on commenting on every single one of these but maybe I should write a separate post for this.

18 Signs You’re a Ridiculously Punctual Person
No, I’m not always the most punctual person in the world but I’ve improved a lot. And especially when something is important, I’m there on time. For example when I have to catch a flight, I’m always early. I hate having to rush when travelling because it totally kills my mood. I love airports and I want to buy some snacks, go to the bathroom 537 times, charge my phone, read, buy more souvenirs I don’t need… It’s like a ritual. As listed, I do set several alarms and I’m on time for work. You at least have to figure out when it’s important to be on time. I will be when work starts, I’ll probably be late for a movie date or something with friends. I have friends who are much worse, though. And if I have to wait, it makes me furious. I’m such a hypocrite.

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10 Things Not to Say to a Drunk Girl
Just take away my phone and don’t encourage me to text him. Unfortunately, you always end up texting him because your friends are so supportive and you just compose the message together. Boy, have I hated myself many times, the next morning.

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My life in 2035

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The future is something that always seems so far away and yet, the future is every single day. It is something we try to plan until life get’s in the way of it. It’s unpredictable and we can only hope that it turns out the way we wish for it to do. Right now, it’s 2035 and I am 47 years old. Twenty years ago, I felt scared thinking about where I would be at this point of my life. I kind of had an idea, hopes and dreams, but getting there is never easy, no matter how old you are. I was unsure what was right for me and what I really wanted but I knew that I would have to make these decisions all by myself. This is my life and I am the person who has to live it, so nobody ever got a saying in what is right or wrong. Until today, this has never changed. I am me and I am exactly who and where I want to be. I wish my three-years-away-from-thirty-year-old-self would have known that, all these years ago.

Since I was born, I moved around a couple of times and lived in completely different environments. For the most part, I lived in the countryside and I always knew that it was somewhere I couldn’t live forever. The older I got, the more boring it became. Not much to do, you meet the same people everywhere and personally, I never saw a chance for a future how I imagined mine to be. I always felt like a city girl and that’s why I chose London to be my home. I moved here a while ago and it was the best decision I ever made. I admit, the weather can still be a little annoying, but the rest of this great city makes up for it. I just always wanted to live somewhere highly multicultural because I’ve always loved influences from all over the world and from several visits, I just felt that London is just the right city for me. I also wanted to live somewhere that is not too far away from my family and I actually fly back and forth a lot. I still have my parents, I enjoy spending time with my brother, and I have five god children whom I love dearly and who always tell people that their “cool auntie who travels the world” is coming for a visit. I think it’s awesome to be called that, even though they are teenagers and one of them is in his mid-twenties. I guess I must have done something right.

I don’t have any children myself because it was never a part of what I planned for my life. Honestly, I love kids and I’ve always been good with them, but I just never saw me having my own. I also never found a man I would have liked to have children with and single mother was definitely nothing I wanted to be. I am unmarried because I choose to be. And I kept my bad taste in men pretty much all my life so it wouldn’t have been a possibility even if I had wanted to. I myself was never easy to handle as well and I got used to the fact that I am undateable, a long time ago. I don’t mind any of this because therefore, I get to live my life exactly how I want to without any compromisation. I know that compromisation is not even an actual word but still, I constantly use it because I think that the whole exhausting process should have it’s own word. It’s something I’m really not good at. All my life, just the thought of moving in with a man seemed so wrong for me. I never tried because there was never someone worth trying with. I need my space and I want it to look the way I want. I know, I sound selfish and maybe that’s what I am but at least I admit it. And trust me, me and my taste are a lot for a man to handle, especially under one roof. I never lost my addiction to everything pink or Disney and it all needs it’s place in my surrounding. For some people this might sound sad but trust me, I am happy. I have the greatest friends in the world and some of them I even know more than half of my life. My family is wonderful and there is not much more I could ask for. That doesn’t mean that I don’t date. I’ve been in relationships and by now, I’ve even made some good experiences, but nothing was meant to last forever. I like it this way. Maybe because I am used to it. Maybe because it was my decision. Either way, I am happy.

I’m living the life I always wanted to live and I get paid for what I love most: writing. When I finally managed to write my first book, and it actually became a bestseller, it was the greatest and proudest day of my life. It allowed me to live a creative life and actually get paid for it. I didn’t have to apply for a 9 to 5 job and suddenly the world was at my feet. Gone were all my worries about the future and I just really started living. I never stopped. I get inspired from everywhere I go and from every person I meet and that is something I truly cherish. I’ve been to so many amazing places that I sometimes have to pinch myself to see if it’s not all a dream. Then I look at a stack of postcards that I have sent to myself and I know that it’s real. Ever since I moved into my own apartment, I started sending a postcard to myself from wherever I was, no matter if near or far. I just love receiving them after I have already made it back home.

I still have many years ahead of me but let’s face it, half of it is over. But it’s no problem because I am where I always hoped to be and I worked hard to get here. I live in a really nice apartment in one of the greatest cities in the world. I drive my dream car, my loft includes a library that I always wanted and a huge aquarium in my wall, which I don’t even have to clean because I can pay somebody to do it for me. I travel to the most beautiful places on every continent and I work while I explore every inch of the earth. This year, I am heading to New Zealand and I am beyond excited to enjoy the beauty of it. I write for a living and this is truly what matter most to me. I could surrender everything I have, but I couldn’t survive working in any other job. I write books, articles and have my own column. Every day I feel like Carrie Bradshaw, except for that Mr. Big part. It’s the greatest blessing to do what you love and I am really grateful for everything I have.

Although I could stay at home everyday if I wanted to, I don’t. I was like this when I was younger but inspiration doesn’t always come flying through your open window. Everyone is living the fast life and you have to be quick if you don’t want to fall behind. Just recently, I bought myself this incredible machine that saves me so much time, in the morning. Through the years, I’ve gotten better at leaving the house without make-up but I’ve never really felt comfortable without a little something in my face. So the best invention ever lets me select a style, hold my face into it and it applies make-up to it in a couple of minutes. And trust me, it is flawless. Yes, it costs a lot of money but it was worth every penny. I hope they find a way to make these transportable so I can take it with me when I travel. It’s incredible what people come up with. I am still thankful for the person who found a simple and affordable way to include light in a purse, shopper or any other bag women carry around. Even that saves me so much time, since I don’t need to dump the whole content onto the floor, in order to find my lipstick or keys.

Looking back, I’ve done everything right and that is the best feeling ever. It didn’t always go smoothly but you learn from your mistakes and grow stronger from disappointments. For all I know, I probably wouldn’t be as successful as I am, if I would have been successful at finding love. It’s what I write about and it’s what I know and I don’t mind sharing my experiences. I like to call it sweet revenge. Writing a book about bad ex-boyfriends is so much classier than destroying tires. Now that I’m known everywhere for exactly that, I will probably never find a good man but I can live with that. The world is my partner and our relationship is amazing. I wouldn’t want it to be any other way. At the end of my life, I want to look back and feel nothing but happiness. Sure, I might ask myself “what if?” but I’m sure everyone does that once in a while. Life happens no matter what you do but life is also what you make it and I made mine incredible. And the fact that I made it all by myself makes the feeling even better.

(This essay was written for a weekend class. We had instructions to include  where we live, what we do for fun, who we live with, how we earn money, what our travel plans are and we also had to describe the living  conditions and any new and inventive items/gadgets that were invented.)

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