The Undateable Girl's Diary

Goodbye, July and August,

and hello, September. I admit, I’m very late with this, but I just had so much on my plate. This time for real. And in July, not many exciting happened, so I decided to wait another month, hoping to have something to write about.

Anyway, it’s September, which is one of my favorite months of the year. It marks the beginning of fall – my favorite season. And boy, did fall hit fast. It has been raining almost non-stop, and it’s super cold. I don’t mind too much – walking the dog in this weather is a bit annoying, though. And the switch came too fast. I’m pretty much stuck with a constant cold now. I also haven’t figured out the right amount of clothes to wear yet. I have started putting on a beanie and a scarf when going outside. Finally, it’s the season for hiding my unwashed hair again.

As I’m writing this, it is Sunday. I wanted to work on my scrapbook all weekend, but I had a reading day and a writing day instead. And the best thing is, I don’t have to work today, tomorrow, or the next two weeks for that matter cause I finally have some time off. And I really need it. While most of my colleagues had vacations during summer, I did not. Since I don’t have kids, it does not make sense for me to take my leave during summer break when everything is more expensive and there are kids everywhere. I always take a break in September, but this time, it just felt like forever to get there. And as usual, in the days leading up to it, when you’re already nothing but exhausted, people hit you left and right with stuff to do. Not fun.

So for once, I’m in a good mood on a Sunday night. I’m planning on having a rather chill first week with running some errands, doing things like visiting my grandma or going shopping with my mom, doing some housework, reading, writing – things like that. And then, next Monday, I’m finally going on vacation with my mom and the doggy. We’re going to the place that makes me the happiest, ever since we went for the first time a year ago: Norddeich. It’s a place by the Northern Sea, and I don’t even know where to begin when describing how being there makes me feel. Pure JOY.

But back to the last two months, which were not the most interesting, as usual. If only I had a blog as a teenager. Oh, the stories I could’ve told. Probably better that they’re not all over the internet, but still. With each year I get older, I become more boring. Seriously, my grandma probably has more exciting stories to tell. And she’s 93. But I just love sleeping, watching TV, reading, writing, scrapbooking – all the indoor stuff. And yeah, I love my friends, but in most cases, we just all live such different lives, and it’s just not as easy as it used to be. And almost everyone I know had Covid in the last two months, and I’m still trying to stay away from it as good as possible. Still succeeding. Furthermore, I had massive car trouble for weeks.

I think my highlight was a work thing. The whole firm was invited to a boat cruise with food, drinks, music, and all. I admit, I usually decide to opt out of these things, but one of my colleagues made me go, and I’m glad she did because I laughed so much that my cheeks hurt. I guess I do have to say yes sometimes. I also went to the small local fair (Kirmes) and drank beer at 3 in the afternoon. I was also social and friendly. I’m sure my parents were never prouder.

I ate McDonald’s with my grandma, and you wouldn’t believe how much joy that brings her, which makes me so happy. I hung out with my parents, and I love that I now live down the street from them. It makes everything so much easier. I enjoyed the beautiful lake that is nearby. I bought myself a bike, which my brother picked up for me, but I still haven’t taken a ride cause I instantly lost motivation and am also scared of hurting myself. I’m clumsy and haven’t ridden one in forever. I tried working on my tan but didn’t get very far. I drove to a shopping mall, went to my favorite bookstore, picked up food and Starbucks, and went back home. I attended my brother’s birthday, socialized, and had a good time.

I drove my car a lot because I had to check if things are fixed, but that cost me my last nerve cause there was no trust there. It made me feel sick to my stomach every time I got in. It’s better now and seems to be fixed. I had a panic attack when I found a spider almost as big as my hand in my bedroom. And that seems to have triggered heart palpitations, which I know have whenever I get nervous or worked up about something. Which happens a lot. I really need my time off.

So yeah, that’s how my life has been going. Not too bad, not too great, but overall definitely ok. I’m sure we all have our moments, but I’m currently in a good mood, and I’m willing to keep it that way. At least for the duration of the next two weeks. I’m gonna try to enjoy every moment as best as I can.

Loneliness isn’t an absence of company. Loneliness is felt when we are lost. But we can be lost right in the middle of a crowd. There is nothing lonelier than being with people who aren’t your wavelength. The cure for loneliness isn’t more people. The cure for loneliness is understanding who we are. – Matt Haig, The Comfort Book

Tons of love,
Hailey ♡

Books I loved
♡ Pipp Williams – The Dictionary of Lost Words
♡ Taylor Jenkins Reid – One True Loves
♡ Bella Mackie – How to Kill Your Family

Lovely life
♡ barbecues ♡ all my plant babies ♡ 90s toys ♡ lake view ♡ beautiful sunsets ♡ McDonald’s dates with grandma ♡ scrapbooking ♡ waffles ♡ vacation planning ♡ tanning ♡ gifting ♡ bubble tea ♡ birthday cake ♡ new bike ♡ pink helmet ♡ meeting new people you instantly click with ♡ blue skies ♡ fairs ♡ crêpes ♡ self-care ♡ book stores ♡ Starbucks ♡ hanging out with friends ♡ laughing ♡ boat cruise ♡ family time ♡ scented candles ♡ fall ♡ saying yes to things ♡ sleeping until noon ♡ face masks ♡ water ♡

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